[no i was enthralled the entire time don't apologize
this - hits her in a way she isn't expecting, so much. for a lot of reasons. first - her heart aches for buzen. for the decision made. on a bigger scale, she understands that it was the right decision. on a bigger scale, based on what matsui has told her, this is the way that things have to be, and she thinks that buzen is stronger than her in having to do it. she would've broken the world for someone who showed her kindness like that. and maybe that's the second reason that it hits her, because she thinks about her own circumstances, and how gerard was right. he killed her because he thought she was most likely to snap. she was the most likely to destroy others for the sake of her own goals. sometimes you have to, to make things go right.
it takes a second, and then she tugs at buzen a little bit so she can hug him again.
she doesn't know the perfect thing to say, and she doesn't know how to give reassurances like him, it's - hard. it makes her tongue feel like lead. but she has learned that hugs help at least a little, when she feels too desolate to do anything else, and so that's what she does.]
I think... [she starts, and then stops, struggling. a beat.] I think that maybe you are more human than you realize.
[she hopes he doesn't take that the wrong way - it's a compliment, in the most sincere form that she can manage.]
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this - hits her in a way she isn't expecting, so much. for a lot of reasons. first - her heart aches for buzen. for the decision made. on a bigger scale, she understands that it was the right decision. on a bigger scale, based on what matsui has told her, this is the way that things have to be, and she thinks that buzen is stronger than her in having to do it. she would've broken the world for someone who showed her kindness like that. and maybe that's the second reason that it hits her, because she thinks about her own circumstances, and how gerard was right. he killed her because he thought she was most likely to snap. she was the most likely to destroy others for the sake of her own goals. sometimes you have to, to make things go right.
it takes a second, and then she tugs at buzen a little bit so she can hug him again.
she doesn't know the perfect thing to say, and she doesn't know how to give reassurances like him, it's - hard. it makes her tongue feel like lead. but she has learned that hugs help at least a little, when she feels too desolate to do anything else, and so that's what she does.]
I think... [she starts, and then stops, struggling. a beat.] I think that maybe you are more human than you realize.
[she hopes he doesn't take that the wrong way - it's a compliment, in the most sincere form that she can manage.]