when it's laid out to her like that, she feels a little less like she's being compressed. she's been feeling guilty about it, because she isn't sure what's appropriate to feel - she's never felt this much, like. ever. not since she was very small, which buzen knows now.
the thing is, she knows the system sucks. she knows that this is not a game that's fair or meant to be won in a way that leaves everybody feeling okay at the end of it, and so... it feels unfair to be this angry about it. to hurt about it.]
Fei Du is important to me. [she says, quietly.] And Nahri even more. I think that she was brave, today.
[a pause.]
I don't know what I'll do. [...] But if Haru wakes up here tomorrow, I won't hurt him.
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when it's laid out to her like that, she feels a little less like she's being compressed. she's been feeling guilty about it, because she isn't sure what's appropriate to feel - she's never felt this much, like. ever. not since she was very small, which buzen knows now.
the thing is, she knows the system sucks. she knows that this is not a game that's fair or meant to be won in a way that leaves everybody feeling okay at the end of it, and so... it feels unfair to be this angry about it. to hurt about it.]
Fei Du is important to me. [she says, quietly.] And Nahri even more. I think that she was brave, today.
[a pause.]
I don't know what I'll do. [...] But if Haru wakes up here tomorrow, I won't hurt him.