[as much of a bad person as shenhe thinks she is, she's not sure she could bring herself to hurt a kid. gerard is one thing, but she wouldn't hurt haru for a lot of reasons.]

... I don't think that I'm as angry at him as I am Ylfa and Gerard.

[which feels true. she's kind of working through it as she talks.]

I understand why you are angry with Sweet Theory. [she says, tilting her head back.] I am still angry with one member in particular. I wasn't ready to lose any of you. But it's only because I've experienced certain things that I feel a little differently from you.

... I care, and you care, and that is just how it is.

[sometimes your heart does what it wants. she's quiet for a moment, and then:]

I think that I am not built to be a good person. I told Nahri I would try, but it's a struggle to do it every day.