[ . . . he takes a breath in, measured, before he lets his thumbs run over the back of shenhe's hand even with the blood. a soft, soothing motion.]

... you're kind people. [they've talked before, about how it's hard to be good. buzen still thinks it is. but he understands always wanting to be kind... he wishes he could be too.] Of course you'd want to.

[even if that's not history. even if it hurts for him to think about.]

When I had to go... Tsuru-san put me and Matsu on the Shogunate side. Everyone else stayed with the rebels. [a beat] He did it because... that's Matsu's history. Being the one to have to spill Christian blood. That's... why he is the way he is.

[because he also wanted to save them, but couldn't.]