matsui and buzen have two very different responses to what they experienced at shimabara. matsui's despair truly only amplified, and he lives in an existence where it feels like he must constantly, consistently atone for what he's done. buzen's response is less catholic, instead falling into a quiet type of acceptance that he is too used to death. that he will be the tool to carry heavy burdens to shield everyone else he loves.
even still, he's doing his best to try to convince both himself and matsui that it's okay to move forward. how can he convince shenhe?
he gives her hands a gentle squeeze.]
... you won't be. This can be washed off. [literally, maybe, but] You might not be able to forget it, but the blood isn't forever.
There's more to life than this. There's singing, and dancing. There's holding onto the people you love. There's your reunion with the people who mean the world to you, and knowing that they will love you no matter what you've done.
It's okay to want it, and wait until you feel like you deserve it again.
[because it's hard to imagine she feels that way now - buzen knows that sometimes he questions it too]
You don't have to hurt anyone anymore - not like that, ever again.
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matsui and buzen have two very different responses to what they experienced at shimabara. matsui's despair truly only amplified, and he lives in an existence where it feels like he must constantly, consistently atone for what he's done. buzen's response is less catholic, instead falling into a quiet type of acceptance that he is too used to death. that he will be the tool to carry heavy burdens to shield everyone else he loves.
even still, he's doing his best to try to convince both himself and matsui that it's okay to move forward. how can he convince shenhe?
he gives her hands a gentle squeeze.]
... you won't be. This can be washed off. [literally, maybe, but] You might not be able to forget it, but the blood isn't forever.
There's more to life than this. There's singing, and dancing. There's holding onto the people you love. There's your reunion with the people who mean the world to you, and knowing that they will love you no matter what you've done.
It's okay to want it, and wait until you feel like you deserve it again.
[because it's hard to imagine she feels that way now - buzen knows that sometimes he questions it too]
You don't have to hurt anyone anymore - not like that, ever again.