[nodding]

Yeah... This body is still failing a bit.

[queasy. help. but also,]

'How' is hard - because I can't tell if Dee-san lied to me too... but he said that Rin-said swam to his death. [so that's not cool,] The 'why' isn't good. It's a shitty reason. Rin-said something that Dee-san didn't like, so he chose him.

[ . . . ]

But Dee-san didn't want to kill anyone at all. That doesn't excuse it, but it's true.