Yes. [his answer is quick, but it is not without weight. perhaps it's so easy for him to answer because - ] I have already seen hell.
[shimabara was a lot.
but buzen did not complain. it was his mission, and history. even if his heart ached, he didn't think too much about it because at his side there was someone who was suffering more. there was someone who needed him, so close to breaking in the darkness of their own thoughts.
he doesn't know if roxana is like that. she's powerful and sharp, sometimes so much like a blade that he gets whiplash, but she does not yet seem to be at her snapping point. he'd like it if she never was. still he knows that if there was ever a moment in which the pressure began to err on too much...]
I would want to be at your side, even if it means entering those flames again, because I don't want you to burn alone. I'd share the weight of your sins with you, even if you could hold them on your own.
[he just doesn't want her to.]
And I'd carry you - until we claw our way back out.
[ For someone who doesn't know what romance is, he says some very romantic things.
She won't write off the thirty-seven thousand he led to their deaths in the name of history. Those are numbers that not even she can match, but she still can't help but think of their differences. ]
... I don't mind if you're at my side. I won't mind if that's what you want, but you will have to wait - for anything more. [ To know or share the full weight of her sins, to keep her from fluttering away like a butterfly in the wind. ] I believe you want to be by anyone's side who wants or needs the help. I believe you don't want to leave anyone alone, but—
[ She's not just anyone. ]
You don't know in what way you mean it with me.
[ Since this started by the sheer audacity of asking if she had a crush on him after knowing him for two weeks. ]
It doesn't have to be any particular way, as long as I know what you mean.
[ She sinks into his arms a little more, almost in contrary to her words, almost as if this is as much as she'll allow for now. This is as much as he can carry her. ]
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[shimabara was a lot.
but buzen did not complain. it was his mission, and history. even if his heart ached, he didn't think too much about it because at his side there was someone who was suffering more. there was someone who needed him, so close to breaking in the darkness of their own thoughts.
he doesn't know if roxana is like that. she's powerful and sharp, sometimes so much like a blade that he gets whiplash, but she does not yet seem to be at her snapping point. he'd like it if she never was. still he knows that if there was ever a moment in which the pressure began to err on too much...]
I would want to be at your side, even if it means entering those flames again, because I don't want you to burn alone. I'd share the weight of your sins with you, even if you could hold them on your own.
[he just doesn't want her to.]
And I'd carry you - until we claw our way back out.
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She won't write off the thirty-seven thousand he led to their deaths in the name of history. Those are numbers that not even she can match, but she still can't help but think of their differences. ]
... I don't mind if you're at my side. I won't mind if that's what you want, but you will have to wait - for anything more. [ To know or share the full weight of her sins, to keep her from fluttering away like a butterfly in the wind. ] I believe you want to be by anyone's side who wants or needs the help. I believe you don't want to leave anyone alone, but—
[ She's not just anyone. ]
You don't know in what way you mean it with me.
[ Since this started by the sheer audacity of asking if she had a crush on him after knowing him for two weeks. ]
It doesn't have to be any particular way, as long as I know what you mean.
[ She sinks into his arms a little more, almost in contrary to her words, almost as if this is as much as she'll allow for now. This is as much as he can carry her. ]