[roxana being manipulative through touch is still so funny because buzen isn't thinking anything of it aside from 'if she needs to reach out to someone, i'm fine with it.' in truth... there isn't much in this conversation that he feels manipulated about to begin with.
it's something that he realized for himself a while ago, after all. isn't roxana just agreeing to it now?]
.... well, yours to a degree.
[he'd already promised all of himself to someone else, so the wording snags ever sos lightly. buzen feels like there's a distinct difference in agreeing to be itsuki's lover, and wanting roxana to be his master. but he also knows it would be wrong to suggest that he isn't already claimed in another sense.
itsuki is his partner and holds a piece of his heart that is arguably the most human thing about him.
it's just the part of him that is so absolutely a weapon, forged from steel and meant for warfare, knows that roxana would put him to use.
perhaps it's a thing only a lost blade could really wish for.]
But this is a choice I'd make, and want. Unless you want to tell me again that I still don't know you, Ro-san?
[ most of her touches are manipulative to some degree. almost every headpat she's given sweet anmitsu, most times she's reached out to chinatsu, etc. she's bad, okay.
She laughs a little. She thinks it's good Buzen is loyal. This is why she's so Verdant (derogatory) (affectionate). ]
I already know your relationship with Itsuki, but... no, I'll let you sort this out with him.
[ She really isn't here to homewreck. Mostly. It's only she will take advantage of whatever Buzen offers her, and he offers himself to everyone. She doesn't mind agreeing with what he wants, and she's selfish. She's at her worst when she's vulnerable. She's at her worst when she isn't either. ]
I don't know, Buzen. What do you think? What do you think you know about me?
[tilting his head, wondering how that sentence ended. what does he have to sort out with suki...
but he hums thoughtfully at the question.]
.... I think I know you well enough - I don't need to know everything about you in order to decide that you're a human I want to follow, for as long as we have together. I still think you're powerful, and decisive. Intelligent, capable, and... a lot kinder than you let on. Or maybe you're like me, and you wonder if kindness counts for much when there are things you'll do regardless that can be considered cruel.
You still hide a lot, Ro-san. [ . . . ] I don't really mind. I just don't want you to feel lonely, or like you can't trust me.
[ She pats him on the shoulder. It's kindness that she said anything at all. Kindness to Itsuki because he's apparently a little yan. ]
Kindness matters when the intention matches the actions. [ And while Roxana does care, can't help but eventually care because she's only human at the end of the day, she does do things regardless even though they are cruel. ] I wouldn't call myself kind, but thank you.
I do trust you. [ As much as she can trust anyone. Loneliness isn't much of a factor for her, not at this point of her life. ] I'll use you, for as long as we're here, because you're one of the few who understand that there are things I do, no matter how it comes across to others.
[buzen huffs a bit in amusement at that - he wouldn't call himself kind either, but there's been a lot of words given to him here that he doesn't truly think he deserves. kind, sweet, safe. they don't really match being a sword, no matter how he acts now that he has this body.
but he seems thoughtful at her words regardless.]
.... alright. Then I'll be glad, if you continue to rely on me.
Thank you - for agreeing to be my master.
[for agreeing to be a part of buzen's own chosen, woven history]
she's been called kind multiple times here, and each time she's responded thank you for thinking so because she does want people to think she is even if she doesn't think she is. this is maybe why people think she refracted, and that's fine. ]
There's not a lot of choice afforded to you or I, so if this is something I can grant, I will.
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it's something that he realized for himself a while ago, after all. isn't roxana just agreeing to it now?]
.... well, yours to a degree.
[he'd already promised all of himself to someone else, so the wording snags ever sos lightly. buzen feels like there's a distinct difference in agreeing to be itsuki's lover, and wanting roxana to be his master. but he also knows it would be wrong to suggest that he isn't already claimed in another sense.
itsuki is his partner and holds a piece of his heart that is arguably the most human thing about him.
it's just the part of him that is so absolutely a weapon, forged from steel and meant for warfare, knows that roxana would put him to use.
perhaps it's a thing only a lost blade could really wish for.]
But this is a choice I'd make, and want. Unless you want to tell me again that I still don't know you, Ro-san?
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She laughs a little. She thinks it's good Buzen is loyal. This is why she's so Verdant (derogatory) (affectionate). ]
I already know your relationship with Itsuki, but... no, I'll let you sort this out with him.
[ She really isn't here to homewreck. Mostly. It's only she will take advantage of whatever Buzen offers her, and he offers himself to everyone. She doesn't mind agreeing with what he wants, and she's selfish. She's at her worst when she's vulnerable. She's at her worst when she isn't either. ]
I don't know, Buzen. What do you think? What do you think you know about me?
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But...?
[tilting his head, wondering how that sentence ended. what does he have to sort out with suki...
but he hums thoughtfully at the question.]
.... I think I know you well enough - I don't need to know everything about you in order to decide that you're a human I want to follow, for as long as we have together. I still think you're powerful, and decisive. Intelligent, capable, and... a lot kinder than you let on. Or maybe you're like me, and you wonder if kindness counts for much when there are things you'll do regardless that can be considered cruel.
You still hide a lot, Ro-san. [ . . . ] I don't really mind. I just don't want you to feel lonely, or like you can't trust me.
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Kindness matters when the intention matches the actions. [ And while Roxana does care, can't help but eventually care because she's only human at the end of the day, she does do things regardless even though they are cruel. ] I wouldn't call myself kind, but thank you.
I do trust you. [ As much as she can trust anyone. Loneliness isn't much of a factor for her, not at this point of her life. ] I'll use you, for as long as we're here, because you're one of the few who understand that there are things I do, no matter how it comes across to others.
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but he seems thoughtful at her words regardless.]
.... alright. Then I'll be glad, if you continue to rely on me.
Thank you - for agreeing to be my master.
[for agreeing to be a part of buzen's own chosen, woven history]
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she's been called kind multiple times here, and each time she's responded thank you for thinking so because she does want people to think she is even if she doesn't think she is. this is maybe why people think she refracted, and that's fine. ]
There's not a lot of choice afforded to you or I, so if this is something I can grant, I will.