I want...to tear him into pieces and swallow him. And use him to become a stronger, better monster, just like I used the last monster I met. But monsters are...complicated, and eating them has consequences you might not expect.
If you hear anything about if we can make that happen and help Rin-san - let me know. I'll do everything I can to support you, whatever it takes.
[normally buzen wouldn't offer because of sword rules since death feels so final - but this place feels like proof that isn't the case? but as for the rest...]
What does that mean to you, Ylfa-san? To be a monster?
A monster is what you meet in the woods. Some of them have sharp teeth, and some are sly and wear the skins and clothes of people to lure in their prey. At the end of the story, the monster kills you or someone kills it first.
[she answers that right away, but as for what she means when she calls herself one, it's a little more complicated.]
...The one I met that day, the wolf, didn't kill me. He killed my grandmother, but he spared me, and he let me eat him so I would survive. Since then, I've become like this. I have some of his strength and his power. And sometimes what I am is frightening, and the path I've followed has been hard, but...those experiences and that strength is something I've been able to bring with me where I go, to do whatever I decide to do with it.
This is not the role I was meant to play, but I don't want to go back.
[he listens carefully, trying to keep it in mind with what she'd said before. the idea of wanting to tell a different story, of getting to choose for herself. he finds it both complicated and easy to understand - the ways in which expectation and choice can clash.]
Then don't go back. [he'll keep holding onto her furry little hand, and run his thumb over the back of her knuckles] Survive, gain more experiences, and see more places with the people you want to be with.
[the pictures that buzen paints is simple, maybe a little vague on purpose - but it is what he wants for everyone. those days in which they can do what they want, with who they please. it is the type of thing that he doesn't get much of, either.]
... I'm glad that you're still moving forward, Ylfa-san. And I hope that you do rely on us - or the people you choose to trust, when things feel scary.
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Thank you. [...] I don't find that hard to believe. It doesn't make me less angry.
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[if he's still allowed to hold onto her furry little hand, he'll give it a gentle squeeze]
Is it okay? If I ask how you're feeling?
[so much attention has been on him today it's very uncomfortable for a sword who exists to support]
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[she will squeeze back.]
I want...to tear him into pieces and swallow him. And use him to become a stronger, better monster, just like I used the last monster I met. But monsters are...complicated, and eating them has consequences you might not expect.
And also, I just want Rin back.
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If you hear anything about if we can make that happen and help Rin-san - let me know. I'll do everything I can to support you, whatever it takes.
[normally buzen wouldn't offer because of sword rules since death feels so final - but this place feels like proof that isn't the case? but as for the rest...]
What does that mean to you, Ylfa-san? To be a monster?
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[she answers that right away, but as for what she means when she calls herself one, it's a little more complicated.]
...The one I met that day, the wolf, didn't kill me. He killed my grandmother, but he spared me, and he let me eat him so I would survive. Since then, I've become like this. I have some of his strength and his power. And sometimes what I am is frightening, and the path I've followed has been hard, but...those experiences and that strength is something I've been able to bring with me where I go, to do whatever I decide to do with it.
This is not the role I was meant to play, but I don't want to go back.
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Then don't go back. [he'll keep holding onto her furry little hand, and run his thumb over the back of her knuckles] Survive, gain more experiences, and see more places with the people you want to be with.
[the pictures that buzen paints is simple, maybe a little vague on purpose - but it is what he wants for everyone. those days in which they can do what they want, with who they please. it is the type of thing that he doesn't get much of, either.]
... I'm glad that you're still moving forward, Ylfa-san. And I hope that you do rely on us - or the people you choose to trust, when things feel scary.
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[but she does trust him, whether or not he says she shouldn't.]
Thank you, Buzen. I will.