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Buzen "#boyfriendgijinka" Gou【豊前江】 ([personal profile] hasteful) wrote2023-06-10 12:39 pm
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[personal profile] bindings 2023-06-25 02:14 am (UTC)(link)
No. [she says, firmly.] I can't.

[a pause.] That was the only question I had, I suppose.
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[personal profile] bindings 2023-06-25 02:44 am (UTC)(link)
[she's quiet, for a long moment, and then:]

You don't need to apologize to me. You did try. [she looked away, during trial, so he arguably tried harder than she did.] The nature of this game makes it so. I can't expect anything out of people that I grow to care about.

[a pause.]

I'm not angry about it. It just is the way it is.
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[personal profile] bindings 2023-06-25 03:35 am (UTC)(link)
[she listens, at least.

for a long moment, she just turns her face away, looks up at the cathedral again. there's a struggle, because there's something - she feels something, but she can't access it. it just rots instead.]


I don't blame you, Buzen. [because she doesn't. that's true, it's not his fault the game sucks.

and then:]


I don't know that I can afford kindness if people will only take advantage of it.
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[personal profile] bindings 2023-06-25 02:52 pm (UTC)(link)
[she folds her arms across her chest.

it's instinct to protect herself. before, anything that made her feel this amount of emotion was dangerous, and so it had to go. but here, she doesn't have the adepti to tell her what to do, how to think. here, she only has her own thoughts - and the thoughts of others. and she has to decide what is worth keeping.

it's hard. it's hard for someone who never has. but she listens.]


... Is that possible? [she asks, after a long moment.] We are here to die, Buzen. To be killed, by each other. The nature of the game can't be changed.
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[personal profile] bindings 2023-06-27 08:57 pm (UTC)(link)
[her arms tighten a bit. it's a little like hugging herself.]

... I will make a decision tomorrow. [she says, after a moment.] I think... I think I don't have the information I need yet.

[she has to think, she has to sort out how she feels, and she has to see what the answer is before she can decide what she wants to do with people in the upcoming weeks. but. she'll try.]

... Thank you.