but he just tilts his head, looking a little amused afterward as he settles into a more serious answer.]
Mm... Well, I only kill when I have to in general—so if someone attacks me, I'm also not just gonna take it. If someone's a danger to others, that's important to me to stop them too.
But... I know how badly people want to exist. I get it. So I don't want to take that chance from anybody that way... though I guess I also can't be super mad if someone tries to erase me for that reason either.
[she's a little relieved that he didn't go on the defensive, if only because she figures a lot of people might. she tilts her head back.]
I don't feel strongly about my second chance. I doubt it will be necessary for me to erase anybody on my own behalf. [...] I would like to spend more days with you too, Buzen.
[ah - well, if she didn't step away last time then this time he'll actually complete the motion. lightly bumping into her side as they walk along, before pulling back.]
Then let's take every moment we can get!
To be honest, I've been thinking a little similarly... I have people I want to see again but - I dunno. When I've been around for eight hundred years, and even then I might get erased in the end of everything anyway... it feels weird trying to win over other people - humans that haven't even had two decades.
But I feel like I owe it to the people who want to see me again to at least try.
[she allows it! it startles her a little, but she doesn't instinctively slap him away or anything. she doesn't quite know how to reciprocate, which is why she just like. taps his shoulder gently. yes.]
You do. [...] Matsui would be upset if you were gone entirely.
[she just dodges around having to talk about herself, though.]
I was only just starting to. [experience the human world, she means. maybe she is a little sad about that, but... she's conscious here. so at least she has that.]
Liyue. I had lived most of my life in the mountains, away from humans. [girl you are also human don't refer to them like that] I made a friend, and because of her, I felt...
Yes. [there isn't much hesitation here. she glances at him.] ... I am limited in what I can feel, but what I can, I hold onto. I would choose this every time.
[there's a little flash of curiosity in his gaze, and he opens his mouth - before pausing. it's not like he hasn't noticed the ways in which shenhe has skirted around talking certain things.
so he'll just say - ]
... I won't ask for details, if you don't want me to.
Do you ever wish you could - I dunno, feel more than what you have? Or is it... [he glances away for a moment, and then when he speaks again, it's a fraction of his own truth] Or maybe that almost feels like too much to ask for.
Then - I hope you get to feel a whole lot of things, Shen-san. Hopefully more good than bad, but even if you get hit with tough one, know you've got friends like me who'll sit through it with you.
[hmm. he looks thoughtful about that, a little sheepish]
Ah, I guess I do... I don't get a chance to make many - and none really last... so I guess I like to seize the opportunity when I have it.
[and it's easier for him to interact with the world, assuming everyone is a friend. still, he knows that he's kind of an outlier...]
But it's okay - if you don't consider me one yet, though. [since she wasn't sure about her and nahri] I like to go fast, but I can be patient too. I can wait to earn it.
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[damn that answer came so fast
but he just tilts his head, looking a little amused afterward as he settles into a more serious answer.]
Mm... Well, I only kill when I have to in general—so if someone attacks me, I'm also not just gonna take it. If someone's a danger to others, that's important to me to stop them too.
But... I know how badly people want to exist. I get it. So I don't want to take that chance from anybody that way... though I guess I also can't be super mad if someone tries to erase me for that reason either.
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Would you stop me, if I tried? [this sounds like a threat but like, she's mostly just curious.]
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[at the very least, buzen didn't hear it as a threat? though now he sounds curious too]
But I wouldn't try to erase you back. I like you, Shen-san. I'd want more days to hang out with you than less.
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I don't feel strongly about my second chance. I doubt it will be necessary for me to erase anybody on my own behalf. [...] I would like to spend more days with you too, Buzen.
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Then let's take every moment we can get!
To be honest, I've been thinking a little similarly... I have people I want to see again but - I dunno. When I've been around for eight hundred years, and even then I might get erased in the end of everything anyway... it feels weird trying to win over other people - humans that haven't even had two decades.
But I feel like I owe it to the people who want to see me again to at least try.
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You do. [...] Matsui would be upset if you were gone entirely.
[she just dodges around having to talk about herself, though.]
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help
this is so funny. he tilts his head a little in confusion before he also gives her a shoulder tap in return? nice. yes. good. human interaction.]
.... well, it's a little complicated for us.
[said with a little shrug,] But even if we get another seven weeks here, that's still something, right?
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It is. [she tucks her hair behind her ear.] I will see you through the seven weeks, team or no team.
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Hopefully we can find even more missions to accomplish in that time, even if we gotta self-assign them.
I feel like I didn't get to experience as much of the modern human world as I would've liked, so might as well take advantage of the opportunity.
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Yeah? Where were you before?
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[a pause.]
I felt.
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but he listens and - smiles a little, at the repetition]
... Emotions are interesting, huh? I'm still getting used to mine, too.
But I think... I'd rather choose this, than not having them. What do you think?
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Yes. [there isn't much hesitation here. she glances at him.] ... I am limited in what I can feel, but what I can, I hold onto. I would choose this every time.
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so he'll just say - ]
... I won't ask for details, if you don't want me to.
Do you ever wish you could - I dunno, feel more than what you have? Or is it... [he glances away for a moment, and then when he speaks again, it's a fraction of his own truth] Or maybe that almost feels like too much to ask for.
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It feels like too much to ask for. [but.] Still... I do wish for that, sometimes. I don't think it's possible. But I do wish.
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Mm. I've got a wish or two that feels impossible.
Then - I hope you get to feel a whole lot of things, Shen-san. Hopefully more good than bad, but even if you get hit with tough one, know you've got friends like me who'll sit through it with you.
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[friend, she means.]
Thank you.
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Ah, I guess I do... I don't get a chance to make many - and none really last... so I guess I like to seize the opportunity when I have it.
[and it's easier for him to interact with the world, assuming everyone is a friend. still, he knows that he's kind of an outlier...]
But it's okay - if you don't consider me one yet, though. [since she wasn't sure about her and nahri] I like to go fast, but I can be patient too. I can wait to earn it.
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No... it isn't that. [or maybe it is a little, but it's more like:] I have only had one, before this. It doesn't come easy to me.
I don't mind. I just wonder how good of a friend I could be to you in return.
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[a light little shrug]
You don't need to do anything to be a good friend to me. I just want to spend time with you. I like to enjoy your company.
Just be yourself, and do what you want to do - that's more than enough for me.
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Even if I'm strange?
[she knows she's strange! but she's found people who like her despite that. it's nice.]
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I like that you don't hide who you are. Everyone should just get to do what they like, and be who they are. That's what I think.
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Well then. I suppose when you put it that way, it must be true.