[he looks a little surprised for a moment, when she says 'nature of your existence' before he relaxes with understanding]
Ah - yeah. [he laughs again] It's why I think I understood, when you talked about feeling for the first time.
It's our first time having hearts, too. Emotions have no purpose for a weapon - but we're something in between blade and human now... and we get everything that entails.
The first time that I felt something more than anger or nothing was when I met the Traveler. It startled me. [...] Perhaps someday I won't need the red ropes. Wouldn't that be nice.
[yea that's about what he expected. there's no judgment or confusion from him though, because swords are also this confused about their bodies. shenhe non-human propaganda continues.
he squeezes her hand one more time before slipping his away, and then just opening his arms out wide for her.]
Step closer when you're ready?
[he imagines this is easier than just coming at her with a bear hug. he'd be fine getting thrown into a building but is trying to have a tender moment here,]
[my goal is that the swords don't realize she's human for at least two weeks
but anyway, she takes these instructions, and nods a little. he holds his arms out - and she's seen hugs before, she knows what they are, it's just a matter of executing it. so she steps forward, and very carefully wraps her arms around him, resting them on his back. it's a little awkward, but she is trying her best, genuinely.]
[she is trying her best! genuinely! and buzen is very proud of her, as well as a little endeared because it's truly so much like watching a blade realize they have limbs for the first time.
at least buzen's had a few years and a few hugs under his belt by now, so his own movements are a little more practiced. he wraps his arms around her in turn, pulling her into a warm embrace. he really gives such good hugs. nice and comforting. though with shenhe, he keeps his hold just a little looser - just in case she feels uncomfortable enough to want to pull away at any point.]
[she's a little stiff, at first. but the hug is warm and nice, and it isn't too tight, and - it takes a minute, because she is who she is. but she does slowly relax, and by the time she's answering she's just settled against him, face hidden.]
... Yes. [she says, a little muffled. it's okay. and she thinks she might like to stay like this for a couple more seconds, actually.]
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Ah - yeah. [he laughs again] It's why I think I understood, when you talked about feeling for the first time.
It's our first time having hearts, too. Emotions have no purpose for a weapon - but we're something in between blade and human now... and we get everything that entails.
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The first time that I felt something more than anger or nothing was when I met the Traveler. It startled me. [...] Perhaps someday I won't need the red ropes. Wouldn't that be nice.
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he squeezes her hand, gently]
We just need to give you more good feelings than bad, right?
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[she links their fingers, almost absently.] You need both, I think.
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I agree. I think... there are some things that you have to face, even if they're sad or painful.
I just also think - I never want anyone to be alone, during those moments.
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Perhaps today, though, we should focus on the good.
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[still though, he grins at her suggestion.]
Mm! Let's do that - so I guess I'll ask, have you ever had a hug before, Shen-san?
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... If I have, I don't remember it very well. [like, she had to have been hugged as a child, right? maybe?]
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I think it's probably one of my favorite feelings I've gotten to have since I got this body - like, next to sweets and a good fight, I guess...?
[that's an assortment of sensations,]
Wanna try?
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... Alright. [she does just stand there like a dead fish though. please help her.]
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he squeezes her hand one more time before slipping his away, and then just opening his arms out wide for her.]
Step closer when you're ready?
[he imagines this is easier than just coming at her with a bear hug. he'd be fine getting thrown into a building but is trying to have a tender moment here,]
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but anyway, she takes these instructions, and nods a little. he holds his arms out - and she's seen hugs before, she knows what they are, it's just a matter of executing it. so she steps forward, and very carefully wraps her arms around him, resting them on his back. it's a little awkward, but she is trying her best, genuinely.]
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at least buzen's had a few years and a few hugs under his belt by now, so his own movements are a little more practiced. he wraps his arms around her in turn, pulling her into a warm embrace. he really gives such good hugs. nice and comforting. though with shenhe, he keeps his hold just a little looser - just in case she feels uncomfortable enough to want to pull away at any point.]
Okay?
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... Yes. [she says, a little muffled. it's okay. and she thinks she might like to stay like this for a couple more seconds, actually.]