When we all found ourselves in a different area yesterday... For most of the time, we had reason to fight, so I didn't feel any kind of compulsion to do so. But there was a point where we were transported to a separate location, and it was only Marceline there. The elements of that place that had forced us to fight were gone, but... I still felt like I needed to kill her. Like she was a threat to everyone I cared about. So I wonder if it is - tied somehow to what happened to you, and...
But at least if that is the case - it's not because someone truly wanted to. It does not change what happened, and it would make me more worried about what might happen going forward, but...
But if I am correct about why this happened, which I'm not at all sure about... I would think before jumping to that, we should see if it could be fixed. As soon as you left that place, you were back in your right mind, right? You didn't want to hurt the others anymore.
I'm not asking because I want to kill anyone, or because I think it'd be right to do so. That's a question for humans to ask.
I just can't let any more of you get hurt, so long as I can help it. [he has no problem playing executioner, if it means saving others. but he also has no delight or desire for it.] But if someone wasn't in control of themselves, and can recover, then I don't see any reason to harm them.
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When we all found ourselves in a different area yesterday... For most of the time, we had reason to fight, so I didn't feel any kind of compulsion to do so. But there was a point where we were transported to a separate location, and it was only Marceline there. The elements of that place that had forced us to fight were gone, but... I still felt like I needed to kill her. Like she was a threat to everyone I cared about. So I wonder if it is - tied somehow to what happened to you, and...
[whatever happened to ryunosuke, last night.]
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You think someone could have been manipulated into hurting him? Because of - a feeling? A compulsion?
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[a beat.]
But at least if that is the case - it's not because someone truly wanted to. It does not change what happened, and it would make me more worried about what might happen going forward, but...
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So you're saying we shouldn't kill them?
[it's a genuine question. curious. he's not sure what the morality of that lies, and what humans do or don't believe.
but his mindset is still that of a weapon.]
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[a beat.]
But if I am correct about why this happened, which I'm not at all sure about... I would think before jumping to that, we should see if it could be fixed. As soon as you left that place, you were back in your right mind, right? You didn't want to hurt the others anymore.
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That's right.
[a beat passes]
I'm not asking because I want to kill anyone, or because I think it'd be right to do so. That's a question for humans to ask.
I just can't let any more of you get hurt, so long as I can help it. [he has no problem playing executioner, if it means saving others. but he also has no delight or desire for it.] But if someone wasn't in control of themselves, and can recover, then I don't see any reason to harm them.
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I do not see it would not be a question for you to ask, too.
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... why would it be?
I'm just a sword.
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I have questions, and I have opinions. They come with this body whether I like it or not.
But I don't really interfere with the choices people make.
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But... What about your choices?
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But I mostly follow the mission, and my duty to humanity.
[so he'll never make a choice that really overrides what a group of humans want]
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I do not like that, I don't think.
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he smiles a little at that, despite everything]
... that's kind of you, Vin.
[but also he doesn't seem to question his own priorities]
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I just don't like people thinking they are not as important as others just because of who they are. It's nothing to do with kindness.
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It's easy to see us as weapons, because that's what we are, and tools to reach an end. Being told that we're important is... well, nice.
[even though he doesn't seem to really believe it]
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[embarrassed.....]
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[people are cruel. buzen knows that. he doesn't mind being seen as a tool - it's just nice to hear that others might feel differently]
Either way, thank you.
We'll see what happens once we find whoever did this.
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[people are cruel, but she still believes there should be a baseline of decency that anyone meets, even if it very often doesn't happen that way.]
You feel certain that we will find them, then?
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[ . . . . ]
I almost feel like we have no choice.
It would be worse for morale if we don't, and more dangerous.
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But the desperation provides considerable incentive.
We can always prepare for what'd happen if we don't find them.
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[but her pessimism]
Do you think they would hurt someone again, were we not to find them?
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There's no reason to think that they'd stop, if something has ahold of them and we don't know how to remove it.