I wouldn't call them false... but I also wouldn't really call them true. It's more that a rebellion happened that was instigated by a relative of mine, and the blame was placed on me. Some people thought I was secretly the mastermind of it, or that I had gotten close to the emperor with the intention of destroying the country to support a rebellion. It's not true! It's not my fault that my cousin had a bad personality!
his expression shifts to something more thoughtful at that, openly frustrated. in the end, he's never really been a fan of scapegoats in history.]
... that's not right, Yuyu-san. That's not your fault at all. Humanity shouldn't get to decide whatever they want like that - not when it's your story that they're twisting.
[but. the seriousness lingers at he tries to think of what else he wants to say]
Mm... well, some swords manifest from myth or story. Or they're swords that are believed to have existed, but they were lost or broken before they could make it to the modern era. So... if there are swords that are known to be important, but no one's ever seen the actual thing - is that tie to history just as strong? ... that sort of thing.
I feel like I should probably accept some responsibility, since it is likely true that my emperor looked away from my cousin's actions that lead to the rebellion because of me.
[ it is hard to argue against that, so it's difficult to not take at least some of the blame.
she nods her head at his explanation though. that's sort of like some servants, although with them it's still typically figures rather than objects. ]
Well... they're still known, aren't they? Regardless if anyone has seen them or not, they still got passed on in some shape or form.
But it's because he loved you, right? [ . . . ] I think it gets complicated, and probably more human than I can really understand... but I don't think loving someone should be called a fault.
[buzen can't really imagine forsaking duty for love - that sounds like a corruption arc ready to happen - but at the same time... it feels too sad, to say that loving someone was a mistake.
at the question, he just laughs faintly]
Sure. Like... I believe if someone remembers you, then you exist. So... it's alright, to say that my comrades and I exist even if it's only in memory. As long as memory lasts.
[ yang guifei, at the very least, wouldn't call it a fault either.
oh this talk is getting deep, yuyu is not smart enough for this. she takes a moment to say this next part. ]
That's sort of the same with humans though, isn't it? The majority of them won't be remembered in history, but that doesn't mean they didn't leave some sort of impact on the world. I'm only remembered because of my connection to someone important, but if I never became the emperor's consort, I would be just another girl. That doesn't make my life before I became consort less important. Even if memory doesn't last, that doesn't make your existence less important either. You're still in front of me right now, no matter what happens in the future.
[overwhelmingly, buzen agrees. but that is what happens when you go through the entire loose plot of kokobo which was mostly themes and metaphors and the importance of life even when it is not remembered, and how it is meaningful even without having to influence history itself.
that's hard for him to put into words.
so what he says instead is - ]
... should I teach you a song, Yuyu-san? Maybe then we can duet it.
I agree with you... and I think that the song I learned is better at conveying all of it than I am. But in the end... I think I like believing that everyone's existence has meaning.
And at the very least, no matter what humanity says about either of us—I'd like to remember you as I know you. Without knowing your emperor, or assigning blame where it doesn't belong.
... I'll remember you, too. You'll be famous in two worlds, then! Or many more, since so many others will think of you, too.
[ this is running on the assumption everything works out here, but yang guifei would rather believe in that assumption at this moment than worry about the likelihood of them actually getting a happy ending. ]
Ahaha.... They don't have to do that - I don't know how much I really left with them in the time that we had. [and he thinks that maybe she can relate, when she had even less than him...] But - if I can count on the people who I call friends, and who want to call me a friend back then...
I think that'd be enough.
[fondly. and he'll just offer a hand out to her,]
Let's go learn it then? Maybe the karaoke place has it.
[this is when a pig noise will fly by oink oink - take this scene]
[ what's hilarious is that she got the memory of the aftermath of this already from matsui so she's sweating because she has a feeling she knows this leads to that ]
Mm. Well... I think as long as you're there, he'll be okay. He holds you very highly.
I guess... that would make sense, since a past event really formed a lot for him, right? Since you are swords given human form, and that's what his human form took from his past...
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[to learn so much!!]
You really have your place in history though... I didn't think we had this much in common - and not.
[the history part yes. the being remembered part no.]
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[ sometimes, people think you are a horrible hussy who ruined a nation, and yuyu thinks people can probably forget about that part. thank you. ]
You're a sword spirit, right?
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False rumors?
[or just unpleasant memories but honestly he's not about to decide someone's truth for them,]
But that's right. My comrades have been summoned in these forms but they each have ties to their history at the hands of their masters.... mostly.
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[ she sighs, before moving on. ]
... mostly?
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his expression shifts to something more thoughtful at that, openly frustrated. in the end, he's never really been a fan of scapegoats in history.]
... that's not right, Yuyu-san. That's not your fault at all. Humanity shouldn't get to decide whatever they want like that - not when it's your story that they're twisting.
[but. the seriousness lingers at he tries to think of what else he wants to say]
Mm... well, some swords manifest from myth or story. Or they're swords that are believed to have existed, but they were lost or broken before they could make it to the modern era. So... if there are swords that are known to be important, but no one's ever seen the actual thing - is that tie to history just as strong? ... that sort of thing.
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[ it is hard to argue against that, so it's difficult to not take at least some of the blame.
she nods her head at his explanation though. that's sort of like some servants, although with them it's still typically figures rather than objects. ]
Well... they're still known, aren't they? Regardless if anyone has seen them or not, they still got passed on in some shape or form.
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[buzen can't really imagine forsaking duty for love - that sounds like a corruption arc ready to happen - but at the same time... it feels too sad, to say that loving someone was a mistake.
at the question, he just laughs faintly]
Sure. Like... I believe if someone remembers you, then you exist. So... it's alright, to say that my comrades and I exist even if it's only in memory. As long as memory lasts.
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[ yang guifei, at the very least, wouldn't call it a fault either.
oh this talk is getting deep, yuyu is not smart enough for this. she takes a moment to say this next part. ]
That's sort of the same with humans though, isn't it? The majority of them won't be remembered in history, but that doesn't mean they didn't leave some sort of impact on the world. I'm only remembered because of my connection to someone important, but if I never became the emperor's consort, I would be just another girl. That doesn't make my life before I became consort less important. Even if memory doesn't last, that doesn't make your existence less important either. You're still in front of me right now, no matter what happens in the future.
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that's hard for him to put into words.
so what he says instead is - ]
... should I teach you a song, Yuyu-san? Maybe then we can duet it.
I agree with you... and I think that the song I learned is better at conveying all of it than I am. But in the end... I think I like believing that everyone's existence has meaning.
And at the very least, no matter what humanity says about either of us—I'd like to remember you as I know you. Without knowing your emperor, or assigning blame where it doesn't belong.
Wherever I go, I'll remember Yuyu-san.
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[ this is running on the assumption everything works out here, but yang guifei would rather believe in that assumption at this moment than worry about the likelihood of them actually getting a happy ending. ]
I would like to learn the song.
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I think that'd be enough.
[fondly. and he'll just offer a hand out to her,]
Let's go learn it then? Maybe the karaoke place has it.
[this is when a pig noise will fly by oink oink - take this scene]
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but she blinks a few times. that seemed rather private for both buzen and matsui. ]
I apologize for seeing that.
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but buzen will just rub the back of his neck before shaking his head,]
Not your fault. You don't need to say sorry.
... kind of a tough moment, I guess. But... I still want to hope that maybe it was the right choice.
[nO IT WASN'T BUZENNNN MATSU NEARLY GAVE UP ON LIFE TWIIIICE]
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Mm. Well... I think as long as you're there, he'll be okay. He holds you very highly.
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Mm, well... I do my best.
I dunno, Yuyu-san, do you ever worry that you have no clue what the person you care about most really needs?
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but she nods her head. ]
Well... people are complicated, I suppose. And always changing. What might be good for them one moment, might not actually be true in the next.
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Mm.... that's true. I guess I just wonder sometimes if it feels like Matsu's a little... stuck.
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I guess... that would make sense, since a past event really formed a lot for him, right? Since you are swords given human form, and that's what his human form took from his past...
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I know. And maybe it's different for me, who lacks much history to begin with so it can be hard to understand but...
When it gets in the way of your enjoyment of the future... I wonder if it's - too much?
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Does he talk about it, at least? With you?
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No.
He tries, sometimes... but it can get too painful. And I... sometimes don't know what the right thing to say to him is.
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[ there's a pause. ]
I'm not really good at that kind of thing either.
[ the difference between someone consumed by their trauma and someone who is too busy moving too fast to spend any time thinking about it ]
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It's hard, right?
Well... I still think listening counts for a lot. So... thanks for listening, Yuyu-san.
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Even if we don't end up figuring things out.
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I don't expect anyone else to have all the answers - but it's nice to know there's someone willing to do the thinking and the choosing with me.
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