That's really thoughtful of you... and I think I get it. I think the feeling - the way that it was described to me - I would just be happy that person existed.
But I also think... maybe you should fight for your happiness a little more...
I don't know. Maybe some part of me just thinks... giving someone a chance to cherish you is a good thing. Even if you're happy with things as they are. There's nothing wrong with opening up a little bit more of a chance for making a connection with people.
But maybe that's just because I don't know much about the feeling, that I can say whatever I want.
[he shrugs a bit lazily, there, quiet a few moments.]
...it already was a connection. The first time I really had one with another person-- actually felt one, instead of just sort of... existing near others.
I feel like you'd understand if you'd ever met her. I'd never seen a person so... alive, or so bright. It was like everything had been dim until then.
They're all different. I feel like you'd get along with Malkuth the best, though. Patron in charge of the Floor of History... she's pretty energetic and a hard worker, she could probably keep up with you. She was always trying to be encouraging, in her way.
You'd probably like Hod, too, but I think it'd be hard not to like Hod. Her floor's Literature.
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[he tilts his head]
Like - you had the feeling and then didn't say anything? How come?
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[he still sounds confused by this]
... so you just kept it to yourself...? Did you like anyone else after?
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[...it's a little hard to phrase, knowing he's talking to someone who doesn't get it yet, but.]
Even if she only ever saw me as a good friend and colleague... I was happy just to be around her. That was when I felt the most alive.
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That's really thoughtful of you... and I think I get it. I think the feeling - the way that it was described to me - I would just be happy that person existed.
But I also think... maybe you should fight for your happiness a little more...
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[ . . . ]
I don't know. Maybe some part of me just thinks... giving someone a chance to cherish you is a good thing. Even if you're happy with things as they are. There's nothing wrong with opening up a little bit more of a chance for making a connection with people.
But maybe that's just because I don't know much about the feeling, that I can say whatever I want.
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...it already was a connection. The first time I really had one with another person-- actually felt one, instead of just sort of... existing near others.
I feel like you'd understand if you'd ever met her. I'd never seen a person so... alive, or so bright. It was like everything had been dim until then.
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It sounds like a nice connection.
Do you still feel like that now, Netz-san...? Like you just exist near others rather than actually reach them?
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[a little nudge nudge ehe]
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[nooo don't wink wink nudge nudge himmm]
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Well... Maybe not that kind of connection, but even for friends, right?
[he leans on him a little bit more, before relaxing again]
I think we're friends. And I think that connection is already important.
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We are, if you wanna be.
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We haven't been already?
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[he's like
half-teasing?]
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[buzen does everything fast]
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[he just says it,
but also:] You're a really easy person to like, you know?
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[is this joking? actual self deprecation? who can say.]
I think you'd get along pretty well with some of my other colleagues, though.
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You'd probably like Hod, too, but I think it'd be hard not to like Hod. Her floor's Literature.