[it always comes back around to things like this, always comes around to them not being something you can stop. this isn't quite what buzen means, but it's where his head's at.]
Everyone kept talking like things were different, where they come from, so I guess I kind of hoped it wouldn't be.
[ah, a slightly more complicated expression crosses his face]
Mm... How do I put this - it might still be the same. I won't be surprised if it is. I think... I've seen people do what they think they have to too many times to really be shocked.
But what I think is gonna happen is still different from what I hope... you know?
...yeah. Yeah, I can get that. Maybe that's the whole point of hoping, anyway... it doesn't take very much hope for something that's already likely to happen.
[the swords and this book: what the FUCK is a trial]
Mm... I'd like to help, at least for Hika-san's memory. His team. The friends he made.
It'd be too sad to let him go without trying, if we can, right...? Even if I don't understand the concept of this game and everything... I can get that much.
...I just don't care for the thought of answering this with more of it. You know what happens if you try to wash away blood with blood, right? It says another person is going to be erased based on the results, so if that's the whole point of this...
[it just sucks, is the thing.]
I don't know what else would be better either, though.
... I don't either. But even outside of here, that's what happens when you want to take revenge, right?
[you just kill the person who did the harm - though buzen talks about it neutrally, almost more as an observer rather than someone who's outright felt it.... ever]
And if that person wants to keep erasing people for more points, I guess this'd be the only way to stop them...
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[it always comes back around to things like this, always comes around to them not being something you can stop. this isn't quite what buzen means, but it's where his head's at.]
Everyone kept talking like things were different, where they come from, so I guess I kind of hoped it wouldn't be.
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[but there's a sort of small shrug]
And I guess I'll keep hoping for the weeks after this, even though I know we have to deal with the situation as it is now.
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[feels like it's a lot easier to say than to think.]
Maybe you'll be right. I'd like to think people won't just... repeat things again.
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Mm... How do I put this - it might still be the same. I won't be surprised if it is. I think... I've seen people do what they think they have to too many times to really be shocked.
But what I think is gonna happen is still different from what I hope... you know?
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Maybe it is. And maybe that's just a human impulse too -
Just gotta be prepared for disappointment too.
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[he hopes for things, sure, but overall? he's still not the most optimistic of people.]
I don't know what they really expect us to do about it now, though.
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[though he looks a little irritated at that too]
Seems pretty messed up. Putting us in a situation where people are encouraged to kill, and then make it our job to stop it too.
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[i had to consider whether the city is even likely to have real trials and like. i don't think this place really has due process.]
Why are we the ones who have to figure anything out? It's not going to change anything.
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Mm... I'd like to help, at least for Hika-san's memory. His team. The friends he made.
It'd be too sad to let him go without trying, if we can, right...? Even if I don't understand the concept of this game and everything... I can get that much.
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[it just sucks, is the thing.]
I don't know what else would be better either, though.
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[you just kill the person who did the harm - though buzen talks about it neutrally, almost more as an observer rather than someone who's outright felt it.... ever]
And if that person wants to keep erasing people for more points, I guess this'd be the only way to stop them...
[ . . . ]
It does leave a bad taste though, yeah.