[hikari doesn't take issue with buzen joining him, at least.]
My heart hurts for everyone—Hot Mess for the decision they must face, and the others for any guilt they may place on their own shoulders.
Though truthfully, any outcome would have been a sad one. I am no stranger to vengeance, and I don't begrudge anyone else for it, but as selfish as this may be of me, I cannot bring myself to feel much satisfaction in a "correct" vote.
It's a pretty messed up system, right? Especially knowing that some people here just - get the call to erase, so they wouldn't even be doing it of their own volition. But of course we're all trying to survive.
It's like... having to face the different shades of sadness, but nothing is gonna feel good.
Well, my perception may be somewhat skewed. Unlike everyone else, I've never had to endure the trials directly, or believe that any fallen friends here are lost to nothingness. [w0 victim benefits (?).] And though I don't approve of Yang Guifei's actions that night, I can acknowledge that my own foolishness got me erased.
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Though our hands are somewhat tied, and the lack of action most days is frustrating, all we can do is move forward. That is another reason that I cannot bring myself to hold any grudges—ultimately, nothing lies at the end of a path defined by hate alone.
[ocotpath traveler 2 is such a pretty game dang - but buzen just blinks a little bit and slows down instead of running straight into the barrier. he is learning.]
Whoa - was that... part of your journey, Hika-san?
Mm. Our father called for an indefinite end to hostilities afterwards, and so I instead served as overseer of the castle town while my brother remained in the palace as an army general.
You needn't feel sorry for me, Buzen. While it was decided for me, I have no regrets about serving the people in their daily life and listening to their problems. Fighting does only so much if those I aim to protect are still unhappy—and truthfully, it is only the army who finds glory in combat, rather than the common citizen.
In any case, I now know His Majesty's reasons for appointing me to the position, so I have no reason to take it as an insult.
[granted the king also didn't, like, do anything to dispel the rumours that he hated hikari and it was his way of kicking hikari out of the palace but it's fine]
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week 3 post-trial
anyway buzen will just go to find wherever he is! what a result that was!]
Hika-san...?
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when buzen approaches, though, he opens them.]
Buzen? Apologies, did you need this space?
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Ah, no, maybe I'm the one who should apologize. Sorry, am I interrupting your focus?
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[he'll just go to sit next to hikari? bonding]
I don't know. I just wanted to check on how everyone's doing after today. It was... pretty rough, seeing how it all played out.
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My heart hurts for everyone—Hot Mess for the decision they must face, and the others for any guilt they may place on their own shoulders.
Though truthfully, any outcome would have been a sad one. I am no stranger to vengeance, and I don't begrudge anyone else for it, but as selfish as this may be of me, I cannot bring myself to feel much satisfaction in a "correct" vote.
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It's a pretty messed up system, right? Especially knowing that some people here just - get the call to erase, so they wouldn't even be doing it of their own volition. But of course we're all trying to survive.
It's like... having to face the different shades of sadness, but nothing is gonna feel good.
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[buzen frowns, thoughtful]
I know that we haven't exactly been given a choice on where we want to be... but it's a weird position.
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[...]
Though our hands are somewhat tied, and the lack of action most days is frustrating, all we can do is move forward. That is another reason that I cannot bring myself to hold any grudges—ultimately, nothing lies at the end of a path defined by hate alone.
week 3 mon
buzen is just going on his run, and will nod in acknowledgement when he crosses paths with hikari wherever he is bc ofc he's around the whole city]
Yo, Hika-san!
[which is when a pig noise flies by. faster. mem please]
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[anyway whoo memory 12:30-16:38]
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Whoa - was that... part of your journey, Hika-san?
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hikari is quiet for a moment, as though trying to figure out the words.]
No... that was—three years ago. The last war I fought in as a military captain.
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[he tilts his head, curious]
Still with your own country and family? Or...
[he can't say he's
a huge fan of his brother,]
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Mm. Our father called for an indefinite end to hostilities afterwards, and so I instead served as overseer of the castle town while my brother remained in the palace as an army general.
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[ . . . ]
You're so diligent though. What's up with that?
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What do you mean?
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You needn't feel sorry for me, Buzen. While it was decided for me, I have no regrets about serving the people in their daily life and listening to their problems. Fighting does only so much if those I aim to protect are still unhappy—and truthfully, it is only the army who finds glory in combat, rather than the common citizen.
In any case, I now know His Majesty's reasons for appointing me to the position, so I have no reason to take it as an insult.
[granted the king also didn't, like, do anything to dispel the rumours that he hated hikari and it was his way of kicking hikari out of the palace but it's fine]