Don't brush off when people worry about you. Care is not always freely given. How much I care is finite, Buzen.
[ She really isn't going to pretend she is the most kind or compassionate, not when her profile is how she's all about murder and other terrible things. ]
Even if you are healthy and strong and can withstand more than I can, when you run straight into danger, run with the thought that I'd like to see you stay that way.
[he seems thoughtful, like he's trying to figure out the next thing to say - but ultimately he's not the type of person to think too hard]
When you asked me how many I tend to guard, I answered that it can err toward the thousands. That was true. However sometimes it can be thousands of people I've never met, or hundreds of thousands more, because I was forged for the protection and battle of humans.
I am still learning - how to be human myself, and how to gauge a reasonable amount of danger. I'll probably still fumble... but if you care about me, I'll try even harder.
As long as you try and you show that you are, that's all I can ask.
[ It's not really like she's out here to change him. There are multiple different things she could say that die on her lips. How being human, how to be human doesn't really make anyone better, and how some humans can be tools forged for the protection and battle of others all the same. ]
It all comes down to choice. What you can choose and what you end up choosing. That shows what you learn.
Is that how it works - alright, I think I understand better now. It'd be a shame to have this body and not be able to exercise some of that choice.
[ . . . well, though that does remind him of something. he's gotten to being more honest now that profiles have been released, but he can't help but wonder if that's limited to just him - ]
Can I ask you a question, Ro-san? You don't have to answer.
[nodding! and his shoulders relax a little - he likes roxana enough that he doesn't want her to get bothered even if her profile says she gaslights people... whatever that is!]
Well... I don't know if it's much of a surprise anymore then, good or bad -
But for what it's worth, I can't say learning about all that made me like you any less.
[ She takes a moment to respond, mulling it over. It isn't a surprise, but she wonders, if because Buzen isn't human, if because he's still learning how to be human, that it makes him more accepting.
Her voice is soft. ]
I won't discourage you from liking me. I'd prefer it. Like me for as long as you can, Buzen. Can you?
buzen just nods. it's not up to him or anyone else to say whether or not her reasons are good enough, no matter what they are]
... well, I'm glad you're alive. Though I hope that your future choices might be a little lighter - like what place you get to travel to next, or what sight you want to see.
[ That stirs up some conflicting feelings, and it flickers across her features for the briefest moment.
She settles on a smile. ]
Thank you for your kind wishes. [ ... ] I'll say this much. It depends on how soon or if we're able to leave here, but... at home, my next choice was going to make things better for my family.
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Are you worried about me? You don't need to do that either, you know. I'm a bit sturdier than it might seem.
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[ She pulls out the water bottle everyone got and takes a sip of water. ]
Tell me what you think of those four.
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You changed your tune so fast! Even I couldn't keep up!
[he'll get to her next request he's just gotta get out his amusement first]
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[ Why do you want her to waste her energy? ]
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I'm feeling scolded... Young women are so stern. [he's never met a woman before and now they keep reprimanding him!]
I didn't mean to make you feel like I wasn't listening to you, Ro-san... I'm sorry.
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She wishes the water were tea. She takes another sip. ]
Your apology is accepted, though I doubt how much you're going to learn.
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I'm not very smart, but I don't like to keep disappointing people.
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[ She really isn't going to pretend she is the most kind or compassionate, not when her profile is how she's all about murder and other terrible things. ]
Even if you are healthy and strong and can withstand more than I can, when you run straight into danger, run with the thought that I'd like to see you stay that way.
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... I'll remember that.
[he seems thoughtful, like he's trying to figure out the next thing to say - but ultimately he's not the type of person to think too hard]
When you asked me how many I tend to guard, I answered that it can err toward the thousands. That was true. However sometimes it can be thousands of people I've never met, or hundreds of thousands more, because I was forged for the protection and battle of humans.
I am still learning - how to be human myself, and how to gauge a reasonable amount of danger. I'll probably still fumble... but if you care about me, I'll try even harder.
Because I care about you too.
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[ It's not really like she's out here to change him. There are multiple different things she could say that die on her lips. How being human, how to be human doesn't really make anyone better, and how some humans can be tools forged for the protection and battle of others all the same. ]
It all comes down to choice. What you can choose and what you end up choosing. That shows what you learn.
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Is that how it works - alright, I think I understand better now. It'd be a shame to have this body and not be able to exercise some of that choice.
[ . . . well, though that does remind him of something. he's gotten to being more honest now that profiles have been released, but he can't help but wonder if that's limited to just him - ]
Can I ask you a question, Ro-san? You don't have to answer.
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[ She gives a small nod. ]
Go ahead.
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[he knows how it looks - 'theft, murder, fraud, manipulation' aren't exactly kind words]
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Hmm... That's probably true. Has anyone given you any trouble over it since they've found out?
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Well... I don't know if it's much of a surprise anymore then, good or bad -
But for what it's worth, I can't say learning about all that made me like you any less.
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Her voice is soft. ]
I won't discourage you from liking me. I'd prefer it. Like me for as long as you can, Buzen. Can you?
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I don't see why not. I feel like it'll be less of a hardship than you're suggesting.
[ . . . well, that said.]
... you must be carrying some really heavy things, Ro-san.
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There isn't anything that heavy. I've made choices, and I'm living because of them.
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buzen just nods. it's not up to him or anyone else to say whether or not her reasons are good enough, no matter what they are]
... well, I'm glad you're alive. Though I hope that your future choices might be a little lighter - like what place you get to travel to next, or what sight you want to see.
It sounds like you've earned a little more peace.
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She settles on a smile. ]
Thank you for your kind wishes. [ ... ] I'll say this much. It depends on how soon or if we're able to leave here, but... at home, my next choice was going to make things better for my family.
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We're going to be able to leave here. I don't plan on just letting all of you remain somewhere you don't want to be.
... can I ask how? Is your family alright?
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