[HIS HAND, CAUGHT. Now he's just depressed because he's thinking about Buzen's tenuous existence FUCKING HELP. WHY IS HE NEVER NOT DEPRESSED.
He gives Buzen's hand a little squeeze, but he at least knows not to say "that shouldn't be the case". He's the one who wouldn't exist without Buzen. The love he has is the strongest thing that ties him to life, after all.]
Buzen... [YOU'RE A GOTDAMN FOOL he doesn't say. I WISH YOU WOULDN'T SAY THAT he also doesn't say.] ...Please allow me to support you in any way I can, then.
[ . . . ah, he said something off again. buzen tries to address the situation in one of the few ways he can: stupidly. so he'll use his free hand to pick up a fry, load it with a ton of ketchup, and hold it out to matsui to eat.
[Buzen would definitely stop his ass if his support came at any cost to Matsui and he KNOWS THIS which is why he's SAYING THIS. Life or death, baybee!! The selfish part of himself that he hates would be content to stay with Buzen whatever the outcome, but the part that wants what's best for others is going to die trying to make sure Buzen gets back.
He will gladly replenish his red though, thanks, leaning over to accept this ketchup-with-a-side-of-fry offering.]
I know that you would still be stubborn, even if I asked you not to be.
[He loves Buzen and he also loves Buzen's infuriating personality traits... Sometimes he wants to throw Buzen out of a window in sheer exasperation but it's only out of love okay.]
[ . . . he falls a little quiet at that, taking those seconds to think about his answer. it's probably true. if there's something that could be difficult for matsui, buzen's immediate response will always be to shield him from it.
but he also knows that must be lonely too. to not be trusted.
after another moment, he'll squeeze matsui's hand.]
[He knows that Buzen is like this, at least, and doesn't typically take it to heart too harshly when he's just Buzening it up.
But even "I'll try" is frankly better than he'd been anticipating, so he smiles, just a little. He can't gently touch Buzen's face with his free hand because it's his FRY HAND so instead he just leans in to briefly rest their foreheads together.]
Yes. [Granted, anything Buzen gives him is enough even when it isn't, so the bar is not hard to clear.] ...Thank you.
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he looks confused for a moment before he does reach over to catch matsui's non-fry eating hand with his own.]
Of course I rely on you, Matsu. Don't doubt that. There's no me without you.
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He gives Buzen's hand a little squeeze, but he at least knows not to say "that shouldn't be the case". He's the one who wouldn't exist without Buzen. The love he has is the strongest thing that ties him to life, after all.]
Buzen... [YOU'RE A GOTDAMN FOOL he doesn't say. I WISH YOU WOULDN'T SAY THAT he also doesn't say.] ...Please allow me to support you in any way I can, then.
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please replenish your red.]
What makes you think I'd ever stop you?
[
so far anyway.]
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He will gladly replenish his red though, thanks, leaning over to accept this ketchup-with-a-side-of-fry offering.]
You wouldn't, in most cases.
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... so I guess you're asking for me to not be stubborn about the remaining cases.
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[He loves Buzen and he also loves Buzen's infuriating personality traits... Sometimes he wants to throw Buzen out of a window in sheer exasperation but it's only out of love okay.]
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but he also knows that must be lonely too. to not be trusted.
after another moment, he'll squeeze matsui's hand.]
I'll try, Matsu.
Is that enough?
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But even "I'll try" is frankly better than he'd been anticipating, so he smiles, just a little. He can't gently touch Buzen's face with his free hand because it's his FRY HAND so instead he just leans in to briefly rest their foreheads together.]
Yes. [Granted, anything Buzen gives him is enough even when it isn't, so the bar is not hard to clear.] ...Thank you.
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and buzen will just lean into the touch too, laughing faintly, almost sheepishly. there are still some things that he's not too great at, huh....]
You're welcome, I guess... [ . . . ] I just wanna do right by you, you know?
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There is a tiny little huff of a laugh in return, but it's more exasperated than anything.]
That isn't even a thought that should cross your mind, Buzen.
[There's nothing he could do that wouldn't be right in his eyes?? (smashcut to him inviting RANG TO THEIR TEAM)]
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[and considering how few other thoughts he has, that truly says so much]
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[Both that it's the main thing he thinks about and that he thinks about so few things that it truly stands out.......]
But you have never done wrong by me.
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he doesn't say that though - instead he just smiles faintly.]
Well... I hope I get to keep that up, then.