[this is literally so stupid they're going to spend all their money before the weekend is over.]
It seems that there are enough places to get food here, at least... What would you like to eat? [MEATBALLS???
But also, he lapses into a brief little lull of silence after Buzen poses that question.]
--It's difficult for me to recall. Our play wasn't that long ago... What about you?
It seems that there are enough places to get food here, at least... What would you like to eat? [MEATBALLS???
But also, he lapses into a brief little lull of silence after Buzen poses that question.]
--It's difficult for me to recall. Our play wasn't that long ago... What about you?
[Sometime after the thing Matsui is just going to find Buzen. FUCKING RANG!!!! Hilarious since he'd kill in a heartbeat especially for Buzen's sake, but he already doesn't like the guy so he's really out here judging like the biggest hypocrite in the world.
He doesn't say anything at first, though... He's just moving to either stand or sit beside him wherever he is...]
He doesn't say anything at first, though... He's just moving to either stand or sit beside him wherever he is...]
[we're going into the (throws dart) selfie museum because it seems like it has the most variety. there's probably a super red room. buzen will just catch matsui there and honestly just
wrap his arms around him in a back hug. boyfriend material. he rests his chin on matsui's shoulder because it's fucking touch week and all of buzen's casual touching has been cranked to 11.]
So - are we moving in here?
[stop,]
wrap his arms around him in a back hug. boyfriend material. he rests his chin on matsui's shoulder because it's fucking touch week and all of buzen's casual touching has been cranked to 11.]
So - are we moving in here?
[stop,]
[HONESTLY IF THEY COULD LIVE IN THE SUPER RED ROOM HE'D BE LIVING IN THE SUPER RED ROOM.
That said, for now he just leans automatically back into Buzen's boyfriend embrace because it's touch week and also because Buzen is just genuinely comfortable. Imagine being so perfectly boyfriend-shaped. Wild. He leans his head a little, bonking it gently against the side of Buzen's.]
I wouldn't mind it. It's already better decorated than the place we're meant to stay...
That said, for now he just leans automatically back into Buzen's boyfriend embrace because it's touch week and also because Buzen is just genuinely comfortable. Imagine being so perfectly boyfriend-shaped. Wild. He leans his head a little, bonking it gently against the side of Buzen's.]
I wouldn't mind it. It's already better decorated than the place we're meant to stay...
[headbangs welcome to hell welcome to hell welcome to hell
after their cuddle session in the selfie room i guess buzen wanders off on his own and then he'll come back!! he ran around to find matsui instead of just texting him, for some reason. but when he does, he'll raise his arm to catch his attention]
Matsu! Here - you don't have to worry, I'm not hurt that bad, but look.
[and he'll just run up to him and roll up the sleeve of his jacket - there was some blood on it already, but now that buzen's rolled it up it just looks like a set of monster teeth marks that are still slowly bleeding.
this is such a weird fucking show of affection for gous only]
after their cuddle session in the selfie room i guess buzen wanders off on his own and then he'll come back!! he ran around to find matsui instead of just texting him, for some reason. but when he does, he'll raise his arm to catch his attention]
Matsu! Here - you don't have to worry, I'm not hurt that bad, but look.
[and he'll just run up to him and roll up the sleeve of his jacket - there was some blood on it already, but now that buzen's rolled it up it just looks like a set of monster teeth marks that are still slowly bleeding.
this is such a weird fucking show of affection for gous only]
[truly and genuinely i hate it here so damn bad
BUT!! Matsui of course turns his attention in Buzen's direction the second he hears his voice, even before his name registers, and he's not sure what to expect but like ??? IT'S NOT BLOOD???? First he just feels alarmed because I'm not hurt that bad is a terrible thing to lead with, but he'll look soon after and of course he's DISTRACTED BY BLOOD.
Excuse him hold on a second he reaches out like a man possessed to gently grab hold of Buzen's bleeding arm without thinking twice. By some miracle, he does not immediately touch the blood itself. He's staring at it like an intense freak, though.]
--What bit you?
BUT!! Matsui of course turns his attention in Buzen's direction the second he hears his voice, even before his name registers, and he's not sure what to expect but like ??? IT'S NOT BLOOD???? First he just feels alarmed because I'm not hurt that bad is a terrible thing to lead with, but he'll look soon after and of course he's DISTRACTED BY BLOOD.
Excuse him hold on a second he reaches out like a man possessed to gently grab hold of Buzen's bleeding arm without thinking twice. By some miracle, he does not immediately touch the blood itself. He's staring at it like an intense freak, though.]
--What bit you?
[WELL.
WELL!!! That happened. He liked Hikari well enough, but it's not like he's a stranger to death, and he doesn't bond very quickly with people, so this is like. A mildly sad occurrence to him.
More than anything, he's a little baffled by something, which he vocalizes as he approaches Buzen wherever he's vibin.]
It's only one... I wasn't expecting that.
[He was genuinely expecting like a 20 body pileup.]
WELL!!! That happened. He liked Hikari well enough, but it's not like he's a stranger to death, and he doesn't bond very quickly with people, so this is like. A mildly sad occurrence to him.
More than anything, he's a little baffled by something, which he vocalizes as he approaches Buzen wherever he's vibin.]
It's only one... I wasn't expecting that.
[He was genuinely expecting like a 20 body pileup.]
[buzen was probably paused briefly somewhere after jogging around, and he'll look up when he hears matsui's voice
now he'll just run right up to him, and reach out for his hand. touch week.]
Mm. [a little noise of agreement] Well... I think people here are pretty kind.
now he'll just run right up to him, and reach out for his hand. touch week.]
Mm. [a little noise of agreement] Well... I think people here are pretty kind.
[i'm assuming they're still glued together
buzen's still a little out of it, but mostly he's back together. he leans pretty heavily on matsui before they even get up to leave mcdonald's.
and what he starts with is - ]
Have you had a cinnamon roll yet, Matsu?
buzen's still a little out of it, but mostly he's back together. he leans pretty heavily on matsui before they even get up to leave mcdonald's.
and what he starts with is - ]
Have you had a cinnamon roll yet, Matsu?
[They are definitely still glued together MATSUI'S NOT LEAVING BUZEN ALONE AFTER HE FUCKIN DISSOCIATED FOR LIKE FOUR HOURS LISTEN.
He's a little distracted himself for various reasons, too, but he will reach over to gently pet Buzen's stupid worrying noggin before grabbing hold of his hand again.]
I have. It's overly-sweet... [He only had a bite and gave the rest to Vash, RIP.] Have you not?
He's a little distracted himself for various reasons, too, but he will reach over to gently pet Buzen's stupid worrying noggin before grabbing hold of his hand again.]
I have. It's overly-sweet... [He only had a bite and gave the rest to Vash, RIP.] Have you not?
[buzen likes the canals. and it's probably why he'll literally go to grab one of the few that they can drive, bringing it up to the edge to where matsui is. he's singing a stupid song in his idol voice - ]
This is the night,
It's a beautiful night
And we call it bella notte!
[it's
daylight?
but he'll reach his hand out to help matsui in regardless]
This is the night,
It's a beautiful night
And we call it bella notte!
[it's
daylight?
but he'll reach his hand out to help matsui in regardless]
[HE'S
PROBABLY STILL A LITTLE (a lot) FILLED WITH TENSION AND MURDEROUS FURY FROM THEIR STUPID FUCKING WAREHOUSE MEETING AT THIS POINT GIRL HELP but it's fine because nothing can soothe his soul like Buzen... And Rang isn't even here this time so EVEN BETTER.
He will delicately place a hand into Buzen's, taking a step in.]
Where did you learn that?
PROBABLY STILL A LITTLE (a lot) FILLED WITH TENSION AND MURDEROUS FURY FROM THEIR STUPID FUCKING WAREHOUSE MEETING AT THIS POINT GIRL HELP but it's fine because nothing can soothe his soul like Buzen... And Rang isn't even here this time so EVEN BETTER.
He will delicately place a hand into Buzen's, taking a step in.]
Where did you learn that?
[just sets this up because help,
anyway buzen will eventually let matsui go after their public scuffle????? that thread probably won't last long after buzen realizes he actually wants to get away.
but he'll eventually just keep his meandering around and leave kaveh's side and make it to wherever matsui is (i'm assuming cathedral but i could be wrong,) and he'll actually pause.
and look openly bewildered.]
... I can go if you don't want to talk to me?
[the way this is such a guilt trippy sentence but also he's got this horribly confused kicked puppy look because he actually doesn't think he's ever encountered a situation where matsui has actively avoided him before :((((((( ]
anyway buzen will eventually let matsui go after their public scuffle????? that thread probably won't last long after buzen realizes he actually wants to get away.
but he'll eventually just keep his meandering around and leave kaveh's side and make it to wherever matsui is (i'm assuming cathedral but i could be wrong,) and he'll actually pause.
and look openly bewildered.]
... I can go if you don't want to talk to me?
[the way this is such a guilt trippy sentence but also he's got this horribly confused kicked puppy look because he actually doesn't think he's ever encountered a situation where matsui has actively avoided him before :((((((( ]
[I HATE IT HERE SO BAAAAAAD FUCKING HELP MEEEEEEE
Well. Matsui is indeed in the cathedral! He's up near the front, looking at something in his hands, which he pockets as soon as he realizes he's not alone. IT'S BUZEN... But it's Buzen without Kaveh or Rang or any of the chaos of the moment, and Buzen not trying to playfully tackle him when he's desperately trying to evacuate himself from a situation.
He's already wound down a little, but how the fck is he supposed to turn his kicked puppy face away... Matsui shakes his head, patting the spot on the pew next to him.]
Don't go.
Well. Matsui is indeed in the cathedral! He's up near the front, looking at something in his hands, which he pockets as soon as he realizes he's not alone. IT'S BUZEN... But it's Buzen without Kaveh or Rang or any of the chaos of the moment, and Buzen not trying to playfully tackle him when he's desperately trying to evacuate himself from a situation.
He's already wound down a little, but how the fck is he supposed to turn his kicked puppy face away... Matsui shakes his head, patting the spot on the pew next to him.]
Don't go.
[he's just going to keep holding onto matsui all the way through his screaming, taking them somewhere a little less public.
it's funny, how buzen doesn't know how to handle this situation and yet he feels like everyone else will still deal with it even worse than him. maybe.]
it's funny, how buzen doesn't know how to handle this situation and yet he feels like everyone else will still deal with it even worse than him. maybe.]
[WELL ANYWAY.
Yeah this is fine probably. Buzen doesn't know how to handle this situation but no one else knows how to either, and frankly, he would rather be with Buzen than anyone else even like this.
EXCEPT HE'S STILL SCREAMING FOR A WHILE and then when he's not screaming he's just crying and it's a sort of exhausted and deeply despaired crying that is short but very intense and leaves him breathless and even more spent of energy than before. He's also just sort of staring into the middle distance like he can't see anything at all, if Buzen's holding him in a way where he can see that.
Eventually, in a miserable little croak, the first and only thing he says is simply:]
I want to die.
Yeah this is fine probably. Buzen doesn't know how to handle this situation but no one else knows how to either, and frankly, he would rather be with Buzen than anyone else even like this.
EXCEPT HE'S STILL SCREAMING FOR A WHILE and then when he's not screaming he's just crying and it's a sort of exhausted and deeply despaired crying that is short but very intense and leaves him breathless and even more spent of energy than before. He's also just sort of staring into the middle distance like he can't see anything at all, if Buzen's holding him in a way where he can see that.
Eventually, in a miserable little croak, the first and only thing he says is simply:]
I want to die.
WHAT THE FCK LET ME LIVE also slaps cw for suicidal discussion throughout this thread ,,
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- 2023-06-22 22:31 (UTC) - Expand[MASSREVAMPS THIS STARTER BECAUSE OF FUCKING D
but buzen is going to run for matsui out of the warehouse and then just - ]
Matsu! It's me.
[to tell him who it is before buzen goes to catch his arms and stop him before he keeps walking on his INJURED LEG,]
Just - wait for me.
but buzen is going to run for matsui out of the warehouse and then just - ]
Matsu! It's me.
[to tell him who it is before buzen goes to catch his arms and stop him before he keeps walking on his INJURED LEG,]
Just - wait for me.
Edited 2023-06-24 03:35 (UTC)
[THIS IS LITERALLY THE FUNNIEST POSSIBLE THING IN THE WHOLE FUCKING WORLD
Well, he is easy to catch considering he's blind and his leg is still fucked up, and also he's basically like hyperventilating out of how furious and distraught he is right now. I REALLY TRIED TO MAKE THIS WORK AND THEN D AND RANG HAD TO SAY ALL THOSE THINGS AND NOW IM LIKE oh n,
Anyway that's what's going to be happening for a moment, just Matsui struggling to breathe and radiating simultaneous vibes of Upsetti and Murder.]
Well, he is easy to catch considering he's blind and his leg is still fucked up, and also he's basically like hyperventilating out of how furious and distraught he is right now. I REALLY TRIED TO MAKE THIS WORK AND THEN D AND RANG HAD TO SAY ALL THOSE THINGS AND NOW IM LIKE oh n,
Anyway that's what's going to be happening for a moment, just Matsui struggling to breathe and radiating simultaneous vibes of Upsetti and Murder.]
[ARE THEY STILL AT THE CATHEDRAL. Matsui just forcing Buzen to be here.
Anyway that was a lot and he's just going to be returning from his prayer void and turning to give Buzen the biggest tightest hug in the wholeass world.]
Anyway that was a lot and he's just going to be returning from his prayer void and turning to give Buzen the biggest tightest hug in the wholeass world.]
[ANOTHER TRAUMATIZING DAY!!
Nah okay that actually was probably one of the least traumatizing over the last three or four, Matsui ain't complaining. He's pretty angry about some of the things D said and the way he behaved, but he can shelve his anger for now.
As soon as they're somewhere more private, he's going to stop, reaching out to cup Buzen's face between his stupid cold little vampire hands. His expression is no longer the carefully controlled impassivity from execution, though it's still inexpressive, because he's so fucking tired he simply can't force his face to emote. There's still a mournful softness and love in his BLURRYASS EYES though.]
...They were hurting.
[Humans. The humans who said that about them - about Buzen. He knows that Buzen knows, and frankly, Buzen's heart is wider and has much more room for forgiveness than his own does, because if he lets himself, he'll succumb so quickly to the coiling fury that had lashed through him the first time Rang had mentioned those words, when they had been sitting together in the cathedral. For anyone to think Buzen capable of being a willing participant is insanity to him, and it had roiled him badly.
So maybe it's more of a reminder to himself, in the end.]
Nah okay that actually was probably one of the least traumatizing over the last three or four, Matsui ain't complaining. He's pretty angry about some of the things D said and the way he behaved, but he can shelve his anger for now.
As soon as they're somewhere more private, he's going to stop, reaching out to cup Buzen's face between his stupid cold little vampire hands. His expression is no longer the carefully controlled impassivity from execution, though it's still inexpressive, because he's so fucking tired he simply can't force his face to emote. There's still a mournful softness and love in his BLURRYASS EYES though.]
...They were hurting.
[Humans. The humans who said that about them - about Buzen. He knows that Buzen knows, and frankly, Buzen's heart is wider and has much more room for forgiveness than his own does, because if he lets himself, he'll succumb so quickly to the coiling fury that had lashed through him the first time Rang had mentioned those words, when they had been sitting together in the cathedral. For anyone to think Buzen capable of being a willing participant is insanity to him, and it had roiled him badly.
So maybe it's more of a reminder to himself, in the end.]
[THEY'RE SO TIIIIIIRED.
but as soon as that flash of emotion in the execution passed, buzen eased back into his usual easygoing if passive expression. it's easier that way. he's done a lot of his worrying and showed a lot of emotion to a lot of people. with the amount of attention that's been placed on them, it's pretty uncomfortable for a sword whose main goal is and always will be to support.
matsui's attention him is more familiar - and it doesn't hurt too badly, though. he lets himself lean into the hold, the warmth of his face accepting the chill of matsui's touch.]
Mm. I know.
[it hurt in the moment for a lot of reasons - to think that people didn't want to bring it up to his face, or that they still suspected matsui who is always so good and honest, or that they all layered every accusation and hurtful thing at rang. it was a surprise in the worst way. rip tsuru. but buzen's emotions come and go - everything is quick to pass by him as he gets time to think about it.]
... We've only all known each other two weeks. It makes sense if there's still some things they can't quite say to us.
Guess it just stung.
but as soon as that flash of emotion in the execution passed, buzen eased back into his usual easygoing if passive expression. it's easier that way. he's done a lot of his worrying and showed a lot of emotion to a lot of people. with the amount of attention that's been placed on them, it's pretty uncomfortable for a sword whose main goal is and always will be to support.
matsui's attention him is more familiar - and it doesn't hurt too badly, though. he lets himself lean into the hold, the warmth of his face accepting the chill of matsui's touch.]
Mm. I know.
[it hurt in the moment for a lot of reasons - to think that people didn't want to bring it up to his face, or that they still suspected matsui who is always so good and honest, or that they all layered every accusation and hurtful thing at rang. it was a surprise in the worst way. rip tsuru. but buzen's emotions come and go - everything is quick to pass by him as he gets time to think about it.]
... We've only all known each other two weeks. It makes sense if there's still some things they can't quite say to us.
Guess it just stung.
[WHO KNOWS whether or not they've discussed this as a group yet but Matsui will still want to talk to Buzen about it one-on-one so it's fine... Their RNG...
First, though, now that he can finally fucking see again:]
Buzen... I apparently received this on Thursday.
[Turning his phone over! The screen reads:
ATTN: ████████
Prepping for new Game. You will each need to volunteer one of your best Reapers temporarily for it. Up to you to decide who fits criteria of 'best.' Cannot give much info on setup, but it is based on that one Game from a few years back. You know the one. Comply with instructions ASAP.
Signed,
████ ██████]
First, though, now that he can finally fucking see again:]
Buzen... I apparently received this on Thursday.
[Turning his phone over! The screen reads:
ATTN: ████████
Prepping for new Game. You will each need to volunteer one of your best Reapers temporarily for it. Up to you to decide who fits criteria of 'best.' Cannot give much info on setup, but it is based on that one Game from a few years back. You know the one. Comply with instructions ASAP.
Signed,
████ ██████]
[curiosity! that's the vibe as he just looks over matsu's shoulder to read the texty and by looks over i mean he'll just put his chin right on it. his arm loops around matsui's waist too bc touchy.]
Ehh.
Have you talked to the Reapers about it? Or Nahi-chan, Kaveh-san, or Setsu-san?
Ehh.
Have you talked to the Reapers about it? Or Nahi-chan, Kaveh-san, or Setsu-san?
[WELL ANYWAY time to run from the depression--
At some point later in the day, Matsui's absolutely dragging Buzen's ass out to go shopping with him because his clothing from the CYOA is essentially unwearable and as much as he loves Buzen, he refuses to keep wearing his clothes. The way he has bought literally nothing and only spent money transferring five bucks to Kaveh once so he has so much money to burn.
While he's perusing...]
--We should get you something, as well.
At some point later in the day, Matsui's absolutely dragging Buzen's ass out to go shopping with him because his clothing from the CYOA is essentially unwearable and as much as he loves Buzen, he refuses to keep wearing his clothes. The way he has bought literally nothing and only spent money transferring five bucks to Kaveh once so he has so much money to burn.
While he's perusing...]
--We should get you something, as well.
[help
buzen is willing to tag along! i guess he's still wearing his stupid crop top, i hate it here. but he's just going to look around at all the clothes in the way that's seeing but not really paying attention because fashion really isn'th is vibe.]
Should we? Okay.
[just.... agreeable. help.]
I'm in your hands, Matsu.
buzen is willing to tag along! i guess he's still wearing his stupid crop top, i hate it here. but he's just going to look around at all the clothes in the way that's seeing but not really paying attention because fashion really isn'th is vibe.]
Should we? Okay.
[just.... agreeable. help.]
I'm in your hands, Matsu.
[buzen: will politely ask everyone else if he can bite them and will do so by lightly nipping at their hand
also buzen:]
Hey Matsu.
[the flash of playfulness is the only hint matsui is gonna get before buzen hooks his finger into his belt loop and tugs gently.
his free hand tucks matsui’s hair behind his ear so he can do two things in quick succession: kiss his cheek and then
just bite at his ear
what a greeting!]
also buzen:]
Hey Matsu.
[the flash of playfulness is the only hint matsui is gonna get before buzen hooks his finger into his belt loop and tugs gently.
his free hand tucks matsui’s hair behind his ear so he can do two things in quick succession: kiss his cheek and then
just bite at his ear
what a greeting!]
[ARE THEY IN THE MUSEUM!!!! ARE THEY IN THE MUSEUM!!!!!!!!
What a greeting indeed though damn. Matsui turns when he hears his name called and before he even does so, from the second he clocks the familiar voice, the vibes are just Buzen Affection yet again... His heart is truly always so full of Buzen love...
There's a little bit of surprise at the SUDDEN EAR BITE THOUGH HELLO.]
Ah-- Our rule has appeared?
[Or so he assumes, imagine Buzen just decided to greet him like that for no reason.
What a greeting indeed though damn. Matsui turns when he hears his name called and before he even does so, from the second he clocks the familiar voice, the vibes are just Buzen Affection yet again... His heart is truly always so full of Buzen love...
There's a little bit of surprise at the SUDDEN EAR BITE THOUGH HELLO.]
Ah-- Our rule has appeared?
[Or so he assumes, imagine Buzen just decided to greet him like that for no reason.
[looks back at the cursed church bang pc life was so much easier then
ANYWAY AT SOME POINT THEY PROBABLY GO TO THE HOTEL and when Matsui's initial emotions subside, the MISERY BOG COMES BACK??? Why the fuck does this man always have something to be miserable about. Did he get carried here. Is he just still in Buzen's arms.
Regardless of where he is he has DIRE NEWS TO DELIVER.]
...Buzen... I-- ...I didn't intend to follow.
[Which he feels fucking AGONIZED ABOUT like truly the freight train emotion of despair as he thinks about the fact that he was going to have to stay parted from Buzen even though Buzen is literally right fukcing there. (francy voice) one more day of emotionshare]
I wanted to. But Ylfa, Gerard, Haru... They said that the worlds of those who lose and are erased are at stake. That they may be erased in their entirety. ...I've failed.
[He is
truly just
Catholic beating himself up over this with a brick.]
ANYWAY AT SOME POINT THEY PROBABLY GO TO THE HOTEL and when Matsui's initial emotions subside, the MISERY BOG COMES BACK??? Why the fuck does this man always have something to be miserable about. Did he get carried here. Is he just still in Buzen's arms.
Regardless of where he is he has DIRE NEWS TO DELIVER.]
...Buzen... I-- ...I didn't intend to follow.
[Which he feels fucking AGONIZED ABOUT like truly the freight train emotion of despair as he thinks about the fact that he was going to have to stay parted from Buzen even though Buzen is literally right fukcing there. (francy voice) one more day of emotionshare]
I wanted to. But Ylfa, Gerard, Haru... They said that the worlds of those who lose and are erased are at stake. That they may be erased in their entirety. ...I've failed.
[He is
truly just
Catholic beating himself up over this with a brick.]
[SO MANY EMOTIONS ALL THE DINGDANG TIME.
but he's probably still just in buzen's arms. they've found their hotel room with two single beds even though they're totally going to use only one bed for the foreseeable future. buzen will move to take a seat, letting matsui rest in his lap as he listens.
and - there's a few flickers of emotion. at the idea that matsui didn't intend to follow, it is a feeling of gratitude and pride, overwhelming, with just a flicker of loneliness. what a wonderful thing it would be, for matsui to be able to keep going even without him. how much buzen would adore him for it. how dearly buzen would miss him.
it flickers with the rest of the news - a splash of fear as every face of their gous and comrades comes to the forefront of his mind, coupled with a buzzing anxiety.
only when matsui says he failed does defensiveness hit buzen like a lightning bolt.]
You didn't. [and he'll lean in to press their foreheads together, to make matsui look at him.] Matsu, listen to me, it's not your fault. Nothing's lost yet. We're not even completely Erased - we're just somewhere else for now.
So if that's true, who knows what else we've been told is wrong? I'm not in any rush to say we've failed anything.
but he's probably still just in buzen's arms. they've found their hotel room with two single beds even though they're totally going to use only one bed for the foreseeable future. buzen will move to take a seat, letting matsui rest in his lap as he listens.
and - there's a few flickers of emotion. at the idea that matsui didn't intend to follow, it is a feeling of gratitude and pride, overwhelming, with just a flicker of loneliness. what a wonderful thing it would be, for matsui to be able to keep going even without him. how much buzen would adore him for it. how dearly buzen would miss him.
it flickers with the rest of the news - a splash of fear as every face of their gous and comrades comes to the forefront of his mind, coupled with a buzzing anxiety.
only when matsui says he failed does defensiveness hit buzen like a lightning bolt.]
You didn't. [and he'll lean in to press their foreheads together, to make matsui look at him.] Matsu, listen to me, it's not your fault. Nothing's lost yet. We're not even completely Erased - we're just somewhere else for now.
So if that's true, who knows what else we've been told is wrong? I'm not in any rush to say we've failed anything.
[THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN EARLY SUNDAY MATSUI AND TUESDAY AFTERNOON MATSUI IS TRULY FUCKING DAY AND NIGHT HEEEELP
Anyway they can be at the local fancy goth store, and Matsui is holding onto Buzen's arm. It doesn't need to be emotionshare week to know that he's truly soaking in the radiant vibes of being able to sleep in a bed, cuddle with his Buzen as much as he wants AND NOW ALSO STOP WEARING SEARS PREP CLOTHES.]
These are nice...
[Looking at some very Victorian button-up that will cover every inch of his skin.]
Anyway they can be at the local fancy goth store, and Matsui is holding onto Buzen's arm. It doesn't need to be emotionshare week to know that he's truly soaking in the radiant vibes of being able to sleep in a bed, cuddle with his Buzen as much as he wants AND NOW ALSO STOP WEARING SEARS PREP CLOTHES.]
These are nice...
[Looking at some very Victorian button-up that will cover every inch of his skin.]
[HIS SKIN IS CLEAR, HIS CROPS ARE FLOURISHING, HIS GRADES ARE UP!!!!
buzen will just be walking along easily, hands in his pockets as he lets matsui just hang off of him as they walk into this. super frilly store. and just starts laughing to himself.
he leans in to kiss matsui's cheek and gently pull away]
Go ahead - we don't need to pay, so I think you can take whatever you want back.
[opens his arms in front of him]
My arms are wide open... for your closet.
buzen will just be walking along easily, hands in his pockets as he lets matsui just hang off of him as they walk into this. super frilly store. and just starts laughing to himself.
he leans in to kiss matsui's cheek and gently pull away]
Go ahead - we don't need to pay, so I think you can take whatever you want back.
[opens his arms in front of him]
My arms are wide open... for your closet.
[HE'S IN FUCKING MOURNING CLOTHES this is so funny not the matching mourning clothes trio of D, Yuyu and Matsui... He's also in his usual somber, solemn, melancholic mood. He liked Shenhe a lot!! And by the time he died, he actually liked Lambda, too. This fuckin sucks, but in about the same way that he expects life to usually suck, so he's not crushed. Just... tired.
Maybe they can just crash on their bed for a little while, later in the day - after they're done speaking to everyone, feeling out the emotional spread, running rites, sorting their emotions, whatever the hell else it is these maniacs do when confronted with Further Death. Matsui will curl right up, closing his eyes. THEY WERE REALLY BANGING WHILE SHENHE AND LAMBDA WERE OUT THERE GETTING MASSACRED.]
...Do you think two separate people received calls? Or that one acted in the way Yuyu did?
Maybe they can just crash on their bed for a little while, later in the day - after they're done speaking to everyone, feeling out the emotional spread, running rites, sorting their emotions, whatever the hell else it is these maniacs do when confronted with Further Death. Matsui will curl right up, closing his eyes. THEY WERE REALLY BANGING WHILE SHENHE AND LAMBDA WERE OUT THERE GETTING MASSACRED.]
...Do you think two separate people received calls? Or that one acted in the way Yuyu did?
... should I change too...?
[stupid, confused little mumble as buzen automatically pulls matsui into his arms - it's not that he's not bothered. emotionshare is gone but the line of irritation is still taut enough to make a little more tense, even as he focuses on trying to reassure matsui as much as he can. it's just that more of his attention in this moment is truly being devoted to reassuring his angsty beloved matsu.]
I don't think we'll get an answer for that until they get here... if the people who came after them were that honest.
[stupid, confused little mumble as buzen automatically pulls matsui into his arms - it's not that he's not bothered. emotionshare is gone but the line of irritation is still taut enough to make a little more tense, even as he focuses on trying to reassure matsui as much as he can. it's just that more of his attention in this moment is truly being devoted to reassuring his angsty beloved matsu.]
I don't think we'll get an answer for that until they get here... if the people who came after them were that honest.
[His expression is pretty hard to read but it's fuckin Buzen so he'll probably be able to tell that Matsui is very unhappy with what HAPPENED TODAY... AS THEY ALL ARE........ WHO DID THIS TO LAMBDA AND SHENHEEEEE.
He still leans against Buzen, though, even if it's a heavy sort of lean with a lot of exhaustion in it. He wants to go back to sleep, damn.]
He still leans against Buzen, though, even if it's a heavy sort of lean with a lot of exhaustion in it. He wants to go back to sleep, damn.]
[HE DIDN'T FCKIN SUFFER AT ALL!!!!! STOP SPOILING HIIIM.
Anyway he's probably heading back from salvaging wardobes by the time Buzen runs into him but he immediately veers away from where he'd been heading to beeline into Buzen's arms instead. WAAAAH... IMMEDIATELY WRAPPING HIS ARMS AROUND HIM and leaning in to give him a lil smooch.]
Anyway he's probably heading back from salvaging wardobes by the time Buzen runs into him but he immediately veers away from where he'd been heading to beeline into Buzen's arms instead. WAAAAH... IMMEDIATELY WRAPPING HIS ARMS AROUND HIM and leaning in to give him a lil smooch.]
Buzen...
[BY NOW HE'S BEEN SLAMMED BY THE MEMORY PIG AT LEAST A COUPLE OF TIMES so he's just coming to find Buzen wherever he is so he can sulk and cling and be spoiled. Nothing too terrible has happened yet but also, not many of his memories are good??? Peaceful?? Pleasant???? He's concerned.
Fortunately Buzen is here which means there's nothing to be worried about!
i dont think i need to link you to memshare menu since buzen is there for like 90% of it unless you also for some reason want his fuckin violence against kuwana or cult birth but here u go anyway]
[BY NOW HE'S BEEN SLAMMED BY THE MEMORY PIG AT LEAST A COUPLE OF TIMES so he's just coming to find Buzen wherever he is so he can sulk and cling and be spoiled. Nothing too terrible has happened yet but also, not many of his memories are good??? Peaceful?? Pleasant???? He's concerned.
Fortunately Buzen is here which means there's nothing to be worried about!
i dont think i need to link you to memshare menu since buzen is there for like 90% of it unless you also for some reason want his fuckin violence against kuwana or cult birth but here u go anyway]
[violence against kuwana would be so funny but
no unfortunately give me the cyoa memory i'm so desperate
i've just woken up which means buzen doesn't know what's coming in the slightest, he'll just glance over when he sees matsui coming and immediately go to run over and collect him into his arms!]
Matsu?
[a pig runs by oink oink]
no unfortunately give me the cyoa memory i'm so desperate
i've just woken up which means buzen doesn't know what's coming in the slightest, he'll just glance over when he sees matsui coming and immediately go to run over and collect him into his arms!]
Matsu?
[a pig runs by oink oink]
[Thinking about how four people died and yet somehow not a single person Matsui was deeply attached to kicked it, so he's like, sorrowful, but in the way that he's usually sorrowful.
More than anything, he's just troubled by the abrupt shift in BODY COUNT... Whenever he finds Buzen, he moves to take his hand and lean against him. He's wearing a ring now! This is so funny.]
Buzen...
[WHY ARE THERE SO MANY DEAD PEOPLE HEADING THEIR WAY.]
More than anything, he's just troubled by the abrupt shift in BODY COUNT... Whenever he finds Buzen, he moves to take his hand and lean against him. He's wearing a ring now! This is so funny.]
Buzen...
[WHY ARE THERE SO MANY DEAD PEOPLE HEADING THEIR WAY.]
[ring?? buzen will just hold matsui's hand and bring it up so that he can kiss the back of it]
Yo.
Gonna get more crowded here soon, huh?
[thinking about how buzen and matsui will need to see if they want to invite someone from sweet theory into the swoom]
Yo.
Gonna get more crowded here soon, huh?
[thinking about how buzen and matsui will need to see if they want to invite someone from sweet theory into the swoom]
[CONSIDERING RIN LEAVES FASTLY and Shenhe's in a state and everything is just in shambles and Haru is so tragic, he decides it's best to give everyone some time to cool down. He'll start to move to stand soon after, even if he finds Buzen's actions and presence soothing enough to take the edge off of this.]
...Let's go.
[He doesn't wanna be here anymore...]
...Let's go.
[He doesn't wanna be here anymore...]
[I'M UNFORTUNATELY FREE NOW AND MUST ATTEND CAPITALISM but im throwing this down anyway, at some point after the maid cafe meeting Matsui's just going to go and fold Buzen up into his arms, careful and quiet but full of affection as usual.]
[ME SITTING HERE LIKE HOW DOES ALPHA WEEK EFFECT EVEN WORK ON DEPRESSION. HE'S CONFIDENTLY SAD, THAT'S JUST THE VIBE. SAD WITH HIS CHEST OUT ABOUT IT.
Anyway as the party begins to wind down, Matsui will go find Buzen and reach for his hand. They have a lot of work to do and a lot of things to worry about and on top of all of that, they had a cool-down party LITERALLY JUST AT THE START OF MONDAY... But also, date.]
Are you finished, Buzen?
Anyway as the party begins to wind down, Matsui will go find Buzen and reach for his hand. They have a lot of work to do and a lot of things to worry about and on top of all of that, they had a cool-down party LITERALLY JUST AT THE START OF MONDAY... But also, date.]
Are you finished, Buzen?
[LET MATSUI BE CONFIDENT!!! CONFIDENTLY THE SADDEST BITCH IN THIS PLACE
but regardless buzen is just going to reach for matsui's hand in return! he's actually going to use that hand to pull him in closer so that buzen can immediately give him a little kissy. unclear if this is alpha week.]
Yup.
You ready to get out of here?
but regardless buzen is just going to reach for matsui's hand in return! he's actually going to use that hand to pull him in closer so that buzen can immediately give him a little kissy. unclear if this is alpha week.]
Yup.
You ready to get out of here?
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