[THIS IS WHY HE LOVES HIS STUPID BEAUTIFUL BUZEN!! He just presses his face into the side of Buzen's neck for a moment and doesn't fucking explain anything as usual.]
It's lively, like you. Listening to it is a comfort.
[It soothes his little anxious chihuahua heart, even if it can't cure him of his deep well of depression.]
[HE'S SO MUCH LESS CONVINCED ABOUT BLOOD TALK!!! HE'LL PROMISE TO BE WITH MATSUI FOREVER BUT THEN HE'S LIKE 'I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY BLOOD IS DOING'!!! truly just stupid and beautiful.
he'll bring up a hand to patpat his matsui's hair since he's all comfy.....]
[He really is just head empty heart full... Once again Matsui is temporarily rescued from the mires of his own depression by Buzen being Buzen, even if this is exactly why they're never going to get anywhere. FUCKING HELP!!!!!]
I would want to listen all of the time, then...
[Imagine if he was just like "let's simply skip the murdergame and stay in my nice comfortable coffin in the blood warehouse for seven weeks".]
[HE REALLY SAYS NO PUSHING OR TOO MUCH PUSHING AND NO IN BETWEEN, ALSO THAT HE WON'T DO ANY OF THE PUSHING HIMSELF, DAMN.]
Hah... I wasn't speaking seriously, Buzen.
[That'd be too selfish, he can't take up that much of Buzen's time, HE THINKS TO HIMSELF AS HE TAKES UP SO MUCH OF BUZEN'S TIME AND SPENDS LIKE 90% OF HIS FREE TIME IN BUZEN'S VICINITY.]
[HE SHOULD BELIEVE IT. MATSUI WOULD. HE FUCKIN WOULD!!]
I'm happy just with these moments.
[Being able to sleep right next to Buzen in their stupid sleeping bag is also enough to tide him over, he probably often falls asleep listening to Buzen's pulse because he doesn't have enough room to coffin pose.]
[WHY is his Buzen the perfect boyfriend shape... He doesn't even need their soft shark friends, he'd be fine with their penguin sleeping bag and Buzen alone.]
We can stay like this for a little longer, then, can't we?
[STOP dash and homo can stay he guesses... THE WAY TOUCH WEEK HAS MADE HIM SO BOLD THOUGH. He can never return to normal life now. He's just cuddling into Buzen and enjoying his new home.]
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It's lively, like you. Listening to it is a comfort.
[It soothes his little anxious chihuahua heart, even if it can't cure him of his deep well of depression.]
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[HE'S SO MUCH LESS CONVINCED ABOUT BLOOD TALK!!! HE'LL PROMISE TO BE WITH MATSUI FOREVER BUT THEN HE'S LIKE 'I DON'T KNOW WHAT MY BLOOD IS DOING'!!! truly just stupid and beautiful.
he'll bring up a hand to patpat his matsui's hair since he's all comfy.....]
I guess you can listen whenever you want...
[it's not like seeing it so...]
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I would want to listen all of the time, then...
[Imagine if he was just like "let's simply skip the murdergame and stay in my nice comfortable coffin in the blood warehouse for seven weeks".]
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.... most of the time might be okay? I still want to go running...
[and he can't do that with matsui attached to him.....
can he?]
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Hah... I wasn't speaking seriously, Buzen.
[That'd be too selfish, he can't take up that much of Buzen's time, HE THINKS TO HIMSELF AS HE TAKES UP SO MUCH OF BUZEN'S TIME AND SPENDS LIKE 90% OF HIS FREE TIME IN BUZEN'S VICINITY.]
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[THAT HE JUST
WANTS TO LISTEN TO BUZEN'S BLOOD AND HE'S SO OBSESSIVE (ABOUT BLOOD ONLY, CLEARLY) THAT BUZEN BELIEVED IT
wow.....]
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I'm happy just with these moments.
[Being able to sleep right next to Buzen in their stupid sleeping bag is also enough to tide him over, he probably often falls asleep listening to Buzen's pulse because he doesn't have enough room to coffin pose.]
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Well... if you say so.
I'm pretty happy like this, too.
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We can stay like this for a little longer, then, can't we?
[JUST HERE, TAKING UP A PHOTO BOOTH.]
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but he's just laughing]
Sure, I don't mind. Is sitting like this comfortable, Matsu?
[imagine going from lap pillow to just sitting in buzen's lap the pda is off the charts]
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I'm comfortable. Are you?
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Yeah. I like having you close.
[dumb and honest...]
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Ah, I like having you close, too... It's a shame that I'll never be as close to you as your blood is, though.
[Meanwhile, Matsui continues to be Matsui.]