hasteful | (mineo voice from the void) kazuki-kun

Ah, no - I don't usually sing? I'm just a guitarist. You guys can duet, though.

Well, he doesn't like bright places, for one? And he wears those dark, but frilly clothes. [ his RUFFLES. ] From what I could tell, he looked kind of pale, too. Isn't that, like, peak vampire?

Ehh, you don't want to try?

[he is surprised if only because kotegiri put on an entire play by himself he was lead, writer, director, producer, costume designer,,

but he looks thoughtful at that.]

I guess? I've never met a vampire before, so I wouldn't know. I guess if I meet a Matsu-like person, I'll ask if they are one.

I never really thought about it? I always figured I'd just play guitar and leave it at that. There's no way I could compare to Isshiki-san, either.

[ he's not as turbo as kotegiri sorry ]

Neither have I, man. [ laughs. ] It's just something from movies. If they've got fangs, though, that's a good indicator.

Hmm, guess that makes sense. I have a comrade who really gets into singing - way more than all of us, and he just makes us do it all together to practice with him. Probably just what I'm used to.

[big gou family... but he laughs lightly]

I don't watch that many movies either though.... But I'm learning a lot! Thank you, Hoshi-san.

Ehhh... It's great that you guys support him, though. It's hard to get anywhere in this industry without that.

[ who doesn't watch movies ]

No problem... [ this is such a weird conversation. ] You're doing surprisingly well with all this.

[that makes him laugh too... buzen really is so cheerful compared to everyone else,]

I guess you could say I'm pretty used to being in weird situations. Maybe it's made me adaptable?

I don't think anyone should be able to adapt to being told they're dead...

[ but sure, okay. ]

Don't tell me you've been in a situation like this before.

[he shakes his head]

Not exactly but it's more like...

When you're created as a weapon, it's not like death's a stranger either.

[ oh here we go ]

...When you're what?

Ah.

[he gestures at himself]

Are you familiar with the concept of tsukumogami, Hoshi-san? I dunno how common the tale is in the modern era...

[ tilts head ]

I've heard of it. Are you saying you're one?

[nodding!]

Yup, you got it.

Phew, that's way easier when someone already knows what I'm talking about...

[he's had to explain so much,]

I can imagine. So if you're a tsukumogami, then... what are you, really?

[makes a gesture to the sword at his side]

Buzen Gou, a work of Gou no Yoshihiro.

Whoa, a sword tsukumogami? That's pretty cool, Buzen-san! I've never even seen swords outside of a museum, let alone a tsukumogami of one.

[he just laughs at that]

Most people haven't met us - so it's nice to get to meet you too!! In the end, I really do like being with humans a lot.

Why, though? People can be pretty awful, sometimes.

Sometimes.

[he's been through too much traumatic stuff to disagree,

and yet,]

... but you're all pretty amazing, you know? Like - how you enjoy music. Some songs last through the generations and are probably even older than me. That's amazing. That's not something that can be created without humans.

The same goes for art and poetry, even castles and history... How can I not be amazed at something like that?

...I guess that's true. I never thought about it like that.

[ kazuki is just an eighteen year old kid who takes those things for granted. ]

You didn't strike me as the type to pay attention to things like that, Buzen-san.

Haha, I know I'm probably not the type, right? [a little sheepishly, but - ] ... But I like stuff like this too, sometimes.

Even if I'm not good at thinking it all through - I've learned a lot from talking to humans, even if I don't get to stay with them very long.

You strike me as the kind of person who only thinks about something when it's in front of you. [ a pause. ] But I don't think that's necessarily a bad thing.

I guess... we aren't all bad. Sometimes it's hard to think about that, with everything else going on.

Fuhaha, a lot of the time, I do think I'm like that. But... I don't know. Having emotions for the first time - there's a lot to think about. Even if I'm not good at thinking, I want to at least give it a shot.

[just to have enough respect for everything and everyone he's met so far.]

But... it doesn't take away from whatever is happening to you in the moment. [just patting kazuki's shoulder] If someone's being a jerk, no way you're gonna have time to go 'dang, humans are great'. Even I couldn't.

For the first time...? [ oh no. ] It's hard enough for us, and we have to deal with that our whole lives. Most people don't think about it at all, so... it's good that you're trying?

[ though how a spirit handles it must be different, huh. maybe it's easier to think objectively, when you maybe didn't have to deal with it before? wondering about it kind of makes his head hurt. ]

...Still. If we are all dead, it makes sense to be upset. I'd think even a sword tsukumogami would feel the same way.

[ versus whatever buzen is feeling, this golden retriever of a spirit ]

It's amazing to me that you have emotions like this all the time... If anything, it just gives me one more reason to be impressed by humans.

[you all just have hearts and live like this??? dang]

Mm.... I guess I'm a little disappointed - there's no one out there that wouldn't wish for more time, right? But... I'm also not surprised, I guess. I always expected to be broken or to disappear eventually.

[which he says like he's aware it's not healthy for humans, but for a sword it just makes sense?]

I don't know if that's something to be impressed about... some of us really don't handle it well, you know?

[ even kazuki has a temper that he struggles to keep in check. now that he thinks about it, he wonders if not having emotions at all would be better sometimes. ]

It didn't really surprise me, either. People die all the time. [ pause. ] The game thing is new.

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