no, she's not crying now, but she is just staring out at the city with a bit of a blank look. it's been a long few days - she looks haunted, almost. coming off the beach to all of this has been a lot, and she's not very well equipped to handle it in a way that isn't just shutting down entirely.]
I'm not sure. [she says, honestly, a little raw. not pityingly or anything, she's just Overwhelmed.] I don't know if I'm okay.
[the problem is she has so many feelings and she doesn't know how to identify them. she's just sort of losing her mind slowly after the roller coaster of their mission and ]
I don't understand why Nahida would. [nahida's not a violent person, and so shenhe is having a hard time stepping back and thinking about the competition, about why nahida might have reasons for wanting to do this.]
[she guesses she has no way of knowing if it was forced or not, but. she lets him pet her hand.]
I don't even know that I will ask. [does it matter? it probably does. she's trying to convince herself that things matter in general. she hasn't slept well, and it's getting to her.]
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no, she's not crying now, but she is just staring out at the city with a bit of a blank look. it's been a long few days - she looks haunted, almost. coming off the beach to all of this has been a lot, and she's not very well equipped to handle it in a way that isn't just shutting down entirely.]
I'm not sure. [she says, honestly, a little raw. not pityingly or anything, she's just Overwhelmed.] I don't know if I'm okay.
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... what's going through your head?
[or well.]
Or is it your heart...?
[being a person with all these feelings is SO hard]
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[the problem is she has so many feelings and she doesn't know how to identify them. she's just sort of losing her mind slowly after the roller coaster of their mission and ]
I don't understand why Nahida would. [nahida's not a violent person, and so shenhe is having a hard time stepping back and thinking about the competition, about why nahida might have reasons for wanting to do this.]
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[did the mods need to put aside their own murder mechanic if everyone got edward murderhands idk
but he'll just let his thumb brush over the back of her hand in even, repetitive strokes]
Are you worried about asking her tomorrow?
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[she guesses she has no way of knowing if it was forced or not, but. she lets him pet her hand.]
I don't even know that I will ask. [does it matter? it probably does. she's trying to convince herself that things matter in general. she hasn't slept well, and it's getting to her.]
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... you sound tired, Shen-san.
Mm... well, you've already been through a lot, after all...
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[she says, reaching up to rub at her face.]
... I will be fine. [she just has to figure out how to sleep.]
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... why don't you just close your eyes - you can rest against me.
And we can talk about happier things, even if you don't go to sleep. So maybe at least your mind can be at rest.