she does jump when he grabs her hand, mostly because it startles the shit out of her whenever someone touches her and she's not expecting it - the instinct is to punch, but she doesn't. she is all under control it's fine, totally.
she's just as confused as he is, honestly, but. he reaches out again and she just takes his hand!
[do people have grease on them...? he repeats it curiously, and confusedly.
then he flexes his free hand experimentally.]
... Mm. Well, I guess it's just exciting - I've only had hands for a few years now. But I - like it, to be honest. Reaching out to people, holding onto them. [a pause, and his voice gets a little more thoughtful] It's nice to feel solid. Real.
... That's a familiar feeling. [she holds his hand a little more tightly.] Matsui explained the nature of your existence to me. It must have been disorienting to suddenly have a body.
[he looks a little surprised for a moment, when she says 'nature of your existence' before he relaxes with understanding]
Ah - yeah. [he laughs again] It's why I think I understood, when you talked about feeling for the first time.
It's our first time having hearts, too. Emotions have no purpose for a weapon - but we're something in between blade and human now... and we get everything that entails.
The first time that I felt something more than anger or nothing was when I met the Traveler. It startled me. [...] Perhaps someday I won't need the red ropes. Wouldn't that be nice.
[yea that's about what he expected. there's no judgment or confusion from him though, because swords are also this confused about their bodies. shenhe non-human propaganda continues.
he squeezes her hand one more time before slipping his away, and then just opening his arms out wide for her.]
Step closer when you're ready?
[he imagines this is easier than just coming at her with a bear hug. he'd be fine getting thrown into a building but is trying to have a tender moment here,]
[my goal is that the swords don't realize she's human for at least two weeks
but anyway, she takes these instructions, and nods a little. he holds his arms out - and she's seen hugs before, she knows what they are, it's just a matter of executing it. so she steps forward, and very carefully wraps her arms around him, resting them on his back. it's a little awkward, but she is trying her best, genuinely.]
[she is trying her best! genuinely! and buzen is very proud of her, as well as a little endeared because it's truly so much like watching a blade realize they have limbs for the first time.
at least buzen's had a few years and a few hugs under his belt by now, so his own movements are a little more practiced. he wraps his arms around her in turn, pulling her into a warm embrace. he really gives such good hugs. nice and comforting. though with shenhe, he keeps his hold just a little looser - just in case she feels uncomfortable enough to want to pull away at any point.]
[she's a little stiff, at first. but the hug is warm and nice, and it isn't too tight, and - it takes a minute, because she is who she is. but she does slowly relax, and by the time she's answering she's just settled against him, face hidden.]
... Yes. [she says, a little muffled. it's okay. and she thinks she might like to stay like this for a couple more seconds, actually.]
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she does jump when he grabs her hand, mostly because it startles the shit out of her whenever someone touches her and she's not expecting it - the instinct is to punch, but she doesn't. she is all under control it's fine, totally.
she's just as confused as he is, honestly, but. he reaches out again and she just takes his hand!
... she is Alarmed.]
Hm. [well, okay.] I see.
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buzen's smile turns teasing]
Eh? Did you want to hold my hand too, Shen-san? You could've just said so anytime.
[stop]
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[she warns, but there's no heat to it.]
... I suppose I do want to hold hands. That's new.
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[the teasing continues, but also buzen is a bit of a knucklehead,, but he just smiles a little bit and swings their hands between them]
Not used to touching people?
[a guess, and said lightly enough]
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[a pause.] You seem to be, though. You always remind yourself not to touch me.
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[do people have grease on them...? he repeats it curiously, and confusedly.
then he flexes his free hand experimentally.]
... Mm. Well, I guess it's just exciting - I've only had hands for a few years now. But I - like it, to be honest. Reaching out to people, holding onto them. [a pause, and his voice gets a little more thoughtful] It's nice to feel solid. Real.
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... That's a familiar feeling. [she holds his hand a little more tightly.] Matsui explained the nature of your existence to me. It must have been disorienting to suddenly have a body.
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Ah - yeah. [he laughs again] It's why I think I understood, when you talked about feeling for the first time.
It's our first time having hearts, too. Emotions have no purpose for a weapon - but we're something in between blade and human now... and we get everything that entails.
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The first time that I felt something more than anger or nothing was when I met the Traveler. It startled me. [...] Perhaps someday I won't need the red ropes. Wouldn't that be nice.
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he squeezes her hand, gently]
We just need to give you more good feelings than bad, right?
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[she links their fingers, almost absently.] You need both, I think.
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I agree. I think... there are some things that you have to face, even if they're sad or painful.
I just also think - I never want anyone to be alone, during those moments.
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Perhaps today, though, we should focus on the good.
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[still though, he grins at her suggestion.]
Mm! Let's do that - so I guess I'll ask, have you ever had a hug before, Shen-san?
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... If I have, I don't remember it very well. [like, she had to have been hugged as a child, right? maybe?]
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I think it's probably one of my favorite feelings I've gotten to have since I got this body - like, next to sweets and a good fight, I guess...?
[that's an assortment of sensations,]
Wanna try?
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... Alright. [she does just stand there like a dead fish though. please help her.]
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he squeezes her hand one more time before slipping his away, and then just opening his arms out wide for her.]
Step closer when you're ready?
[he imagines this is easier than just coming at her with a bear hug. he'd be fine getting thrown into a building but is trying to have a tender moment here,]
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but anyway, she takes these instructions, and nods a little. he holds his arms out - and she's seen hugs before, she knows what they are, it's just a matter of executing it. so she steps forward, and very carefully wraps her arms around him, resting them on his back. it's a little awkward, but she is trying her best, genuinely.]
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at least buzen's had a few years and a few hugs under his belt by now, so his own movements are a little more practiced. he wraps his arms around her in turn, pulling her into a warm embrace. he really gives such good hugs. nice and comforting. though with shenhe, he keeps his hold just a little looser - just in case she feels uncomfortable enough to want to pull away at any point.]
Okay?
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... Yes. [she says, a little muffled. it's okay. and she thinks she might like to stay like this for a couple more seconds, actually.]