hasteful | u know what? ok. i trust netzach

Believed Simon when he said they needed to go after Zelda, of all people.

[he didn't have to use her own sword, either. not with what it means to her.]

I think that'd be good though, yeah. I could really use a few.

Mm... [he nods at that, understanding] Makes sense. Relationships seem really complicated for people around here, huh?

[but he'll just keep an arm around netzach's shoulders in his casually touchy way and head toward the closest place that has Drinks]

Then let's go get some drinks in you. Did you find a place in the hotel to stay in already? I can carry you back.

Yeah, Nahida helped me find a room earlier.

[he will absolutely not say no to being carried, even if he has two legs again.]

You're gonna have to catch me up on what's been happening around here. Have you guys been okay?

That's good! Are you staying with them? If you are then Matsu and I will drop by from time to time anyway.

[the roaming swords who just like crowded rooms]

What's been happening... I mean, yeah, we've been pretty okay. I went on one of those missions which was a little tough, but overall I think people are in better spirits over here than there.

We do a lot of playing around and laughing, which is nice.

I'll probably stay with Yuzu, Yuyu, and Zelda if they all want to.

[their team bonding... yuneyuze sticks together probably...]

It definitely seems like it, though-- things were getting, uh... pretty rough on the other side. So I don't know, maybe doing better is a low bar to begin with.

Has Matsui been okay, too?

Team bonding, huh... Yuyu-san's been staying with us but I think we're all rearranging rooms every week so... have fun!

[fondly]

Definitely a low bar. [immediately] So I can say we clear it pretty easy.

You care about Matsu a lot huh, Netz-san... [even more fondly!!] He's been good. Ups and downs as always with him, but.... yeah. He's been sweet lately.

I mean, I care a lot about both of you guys, you know...? But- I feel like we're pretty similar in a few ways, so I guess that makes me worry a little more too.

[it's the depression. sometimes you just vibe extremely hard with someone the night before they get fucking sharked.]

[ ? ]

Then should I take care of you the way I take care of Matsu?

Uh- well, maybe not the same way? It's different with you two, right?

Is it?

I kinda figured it would be...?

[shrugs...]

Depends on what you mean by it.

There's not all that much stuff I do with Matsu that I wouldn't do with someone else if they wanted to...

[but they made it to a bar!! hell yea this is for you netzach]

I just assumed you'd be-- you know. Together.

[he was around them during emotionshare

netzach absolutely perks up when they reach the bar, though.]

... does 'together' mean something special here.

[he's so stupid, netzach,

but he'll walk back to the bar and then go to grab two glasses]

Want anything in particular?

Like, uh. Emotionally? Romantically? Does that help...

[DOES IT he doesn't know.]

Break out the champagne if they've got any.

Sure!

[he'll go to look at the different bottles and try to find the champagne, but as he's doing that - ]

I guess we're together romantically...? Rin talks about that sometimes. Matsu and I kiss and stuff, if that's what you mean.

But it's not like that something has to only be between us.... Matsu can kiss whoever he wants as far as I care.

Felt a lot like you're the only one he'd want to, man, I was around you both that week.

[but he definitely says it fondly, because it was still nice... he's still happy they're here with each other, difficult as the game is.

after a few seconds, though-]

It wouldn't... bother you, if someone else did want to?

[not that i wouldn't want to with you, either, but i don't know if he'd believe me to begin with, i wouldn't want him to feel like an afterthought or anything...

look he's spent just enough time around matsui to feel like if he came second he might never believe it wasn't just for buzen's sake or something, and also he just thinks maybe this depressed fucking sword could stand to be put first anyway.]

Why would it? He's cute and fun to kiss.

[buzen literally doesn't have a single jealous bone in his body. he also doesn't have much concept of how much matsui likes him though so it is a pretty dangerous game to play.

he found the champagne though!! he turns around to face netzach and tilts his head]

Oh - you like Matsu in a romance way, Netz-san?

[IT JUST CLICKED]

I-- yeah. I'm pretty sure I do.

[sometimes you have a feeling for more than one sword actually but listen this is progress

he just doesn't know if it's a good idea to admit to it, or... do anything about it at all, considering. they don't know how this all ends yet.]

[buzen nods - and pops the champagne!! wow! what timing!

but he'll go to fill up two glasses then]

It makes enough sense to me. I love Matsu too - and even though he doesn't always agree, I think he's really easy to love.

I'm glad you're willing to admit it, though. Since last time we talked, you didn't want to.... Regardless of how things go, I think it's a sweet connection.

So I'll just wish you luck, whatever you decide to do.

Huh? Was it obvious then...

[he didn't even realize until after the swords were both dead

he's taking his glass and taking a quick drink because now he needs it more than he previously did.]

Oh no, I had no idea.

[his eq is good but not that good in terms of romance it's too foreign]

I just meant when we talked about the last time you had feelings for someone and didn't say anything...

I'm glad that you're willing to say something now, is all.

-right. With Carmen.

[for a few seconds, he's quiet.]

It's still difficult, if I'm being honest. It still feels like the best answer is to just-- do nothing, and be satisfied with everyone's company while we have it. But I think...

...when we talked the night after the trial, and I said I'd miss him, he felt guilty about the thought that anyone would be upset he was gone. I promised I'd remember him in better ways-- that I'd think about things like when we all made flower crowns together, not about how sad the situation was.

So I think more than I'm worried about it being a bad idea, I just... I want him to know he's cared for, if he'll hear it.

[buzen is quiet at that, sipping on his champagne glass. his thoughts briefly do his speaking for him sounds like matsu

he is unsurprised, even if he is so, so loving]

... I think you'll catch him off-guard, but I also don't think that's a bad thing. I think Matsu doesn't expect to be loved, even if he's more than deserving of it.

I can't tell you how it'll go or anything - there's things about him that even I don't really get... but I hope you're able to say what you want.

I don't think he expects it either-- and I don't have any idea about how it'd go myself, honestly, I can tell that he's... really attached to you.

[it is fully possible that there is only room in this depressed lil sword heart for buzen. he anticipates this, tbh.]

But you're still right that he's deserving of it either way.

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