u know what? ok. i trust netzach

[hasteful]

Comments

[abstractart]

...yeah. They can't get inside without an invitation, and they technically have to agree to it, but... it's not as fair an exchange as it looks like it is. Is it really agreeing to risk becoming a book of your own free will, if you had no other choice but to sign? There's been people in that kind of situation who came to the Library too.

[hasteful]

Eh... You're surprisingly open and blunt about it...

[just a little surprised, but he doesn't sound judgmental at all]

How do you feel? As a Librarian.

[abstractart]

I don't like it.

[just as blunt about this part-- there's no reason not to be, anyway.]

Situations like that, where someone has to win and someone has to lose... I'm not a fan of them, or of fighting people, but we didn't really have another choice either.

It bothers me that she pretends to think it's really fair.

[hasteful]

Ah... Do you have to fight the people who come into the library? Or do you risk becoming a book too...?

Is 'she' your boss?

[abstractart]

Yeah. Angela. She created the Library, and gave us the bodies we have now.

[the rest... he's quiet, briefly.]

I guess we kind of are books already? We still become them when we're killed too, she just brings us back after... but we're not really human.

[hasteful]

Ah...

[he raises his brows at that. it's so touken ranbu, he gets it a lot.]

... but you don't like what you do.

[but they still have to do it....]

[abstractart]

...no. We were all split on whether we even wanted to make the deal with her that we did, but... it's the only thing we could do.

[hasteful]

What about you, Netz-san?

Did you want to make the deal?

[abstractart]

I was against it.

...we could tell when we were fighting a losing battle, though. All our efforts were just going to go to waste.

[hasteful]

[ . . . he nods quietly.]

Mm.

That doesn't make it any less tough on you, though. I'm sorry.

[abstractart]

I still agreed to it, so-- I'll finish what we started. And if I get to live after that, maybe I'll be able to do something different, this time.

[hasteful]

What would you do? If you got to live however you wanted.

[abstractart]

However I wanted...?

[someone else asked him something along these lines, once. his answer's still the same:]

If I could have a different life, I think I'd just want to paint. I'd like to have a simple life like that.

[hasteful]

[buzen laughs faintly, and can't help but reflect - ]

There's a lot of joy to be found in simple lives, doing what you want with the people you enjoy. I hope you get that.

[abstractart]

...yeah, thanks. So do I. It'll be alright if I don't, but so long as I get some kind of life again, I think I'll be okay.