Mm.... I guess not. Then - I'll make sure to keep that secret safe.
[he will have his seat and - honestly, partially touch week remnants and partially just buzen at work, he's going to use his arm to encourage netzach to lean against him like before
That's really thoughtful of you... and I think I get it. I think the feeling - the way that it was described to me - I would just be happy that person existed.
But I also think... maybe you should fight for your happiness a little more...
I don't know. Maybe some part of me just thinks... giving someone a chance to cherish you is a good thing. Even if you're happy with things as they are. There's nothing wrong with opening up a little bit more of a chance for making a connection with people.
But maybe that's just because I don't know much about the feeling, that I can say whatever I want.
[he shrugs a bit lazily, there, quiet a few moments.]
...it already was a connection. The first time I really had one with another person-- actually felt one, instead of just sort of... existing near others.
I feel like you'd understand if you'd ever met her. I'd never seen a person so... alive, or so bright. It was like everything had been dim until then.
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[in a little awed tone. but he'll also go to join him to sit! buzen simply likes being close to people all the time he invites himself over]
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[telling actual swords about that is fine, though. he doesn't mind him inviting himself over, either, letting him make himself comfortable.]
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[he will have his seat and - honestly, partially touch week remnants and partially just buzen at work, he's going to use his arm to encourage netzach to lean against him like before
comfy]
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[everyone just assumes and you know, he's okay letting that happen for now. it's not like he's great at it.
it doesn't take much encouragement for him to lean, though, he is always down to be comfy.]
Nobody's going to try to kick me over this, right?
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Eh? No? Why would they?
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[no not that you idiot]
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[?? what is happening. he can't judge it but he would not have guessed...]
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Is this not a normal timeline for this kind of thing, Netz-san? I don't know much about it...
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[he tilts his head]
Like - you had the feeling and then didn't say anything? How come?
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[he still sounds confused by this]
... so you just kept it to yourself...? Did you like anyone else after?
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[...it's a little hard to phrase, knowing he's talking to someone who doesn't get it yet, but.]
Even if she only ever saw me as a good friend and colleague... I was happy just to be around her. That was when I felt the most alive.
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That's really thoughtful of you... and I think I get it. I think the feeling - the way that it was described to me - I would just be happy that person existed.
But I also think... maybe you should fight for your happiness a little more...
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[ . . . ]
I don't know. Maybe some part of me just thinks... giving someone a chance to cherish you is a good thing. Even if you're happy with things as they are. There's nothing wrong with opening up a little bit more of a chance for making a connection with people.
But maybe that's just because I don't know much about the feeling, that I can say whatever I want.
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...it already was a connection. The first time I really had one with another person-- actually felt one, instead of just sort of... existing near others.
I feel like you'd understand if you'd ever met her. I'd never seen a person so... alive, or so bright. It was like everything had been dim until then.
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It sounds like a nice connection.
Do you still feel like that now, Netz-san...? Like you just exist near others rather than actually reach them?
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