[ this kind of behavior is something fei du should probably not be proud of - and it's not that he's proud, necessarily, but he's not ashamed of it, either. frankly, most of the people here who have seen the same memory have told him something similar. that it must have been effective, that it must have been worth it, and that's exactly what he thinks, too. it's a much rarer occasion for someone to point out how badly he's harmed himself in the process.
it does accomplish what he needs. fei du, as far as he's concerned, has no trauma at all. because that's healthy person thinking.
he laughs a little. ] Though, admittedly, it's a bit inconvenient, here. [ there is so much blood all the time ] But, I'd rather be inconvenienced than the alternative.
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[ this kind of behavior is something fei du should probably not be proud of - and it's not that he's proud, necessarily, but he's not ashamed of it, either. frankly, most of the people here who have seen the same memory have told him something similar. that it must have been effective, that it must have been worth it, and that's exactly what he thinks, too. it's a much rarer occasion for someone to point out how badly he's harmed himself in the process.
it does accomplish what he needs. fei du, as far as he's concerned, has no trauma at all. because that's healthy person thinking.
he laughs a little. ] Though, admittedly, it's a bit inconvenient, here. [ there is so much blood all the time ] But, I'd rather be inconvenienced than the alternative.