What if it didn't? What if I just remembered you like it when I bite you?
[he's playing around though, obviously. also he's laughing both inside and outside. matsui is so strange and buzen similarly feels so much fondness for him. weird little guy.]
This is terrible god once again they're going to sail into a fondness spiral because Matsui finds Buzen's fondness very soft and sweet and adorable. HE LOVES BUZEN SO MUCH!!!!!]
Will you allow me a bite in return, then?
[He says this as if he will get any answer other than yes HE'S ALREADY REACHING FOR BUZEN'S HAND.]
[IT FEELS IMPOSSIBLE AND YET THAT'S WHY IT'S SO FUNNY
but buzen will just go ahead and let matsui reach for his hand. sure.]
Are you going to make me bleed?
[the way that he's not even like
all that offended at this possibility or worried, he just wants to know. also matsui deserves to do what makes him happy after this past week, even iF IT'S BITING BUZEN UNTIL HE BLEEDS]
[UNFORTUNATELY BUZEN NOW HAS TO EXPERIENCE THE DELIGHT AND HEART-RACING EXCITEMENT THAT MATSUI DOES WHEN HE THINKS ABOUT BUZEN'S BLOOD. He's smiling again but this time it is for worse reasons. Someone come re-traumatize him so he will stop.]
Can I?
[The vibes are absolutely and overwhelmingly that he wants to.]
[HE REALLY SHOULDN'T BE ALLOWED TO GET AWAY WITH THISSSSSSS.]
Thank you.
[He's being so polite about this and so tendy when he gently grabs hold of Buzen's hand and starts moving his sleeve so he can expose his wrist. This is horrible. HE'S TRULY SO HAPPY TO BE ALLOWED TO CHOMP BUZEN'S BLOOD OUT!!!!
Which he will do, pulling his wrist to his mouth and biting down very gently at first, and then hard enough to draw blood in one swift motion. Not his stupid fangs.]
[matsui is really not biting the vampire allegations.
but honestly it's so funny - he's so happy that eventually buzen's feelings just even out toward something fond. even when the blood is drawn, and he jumps just a little bit. he otherwise doesn't pull away and just lets matsui bite him enough to make him bleed.
[HIS TRAUMA REALLY DID JUST TURN HIM INTO A CATHOLIC VAMPIRE...
Matsui pulls his mouth away so he can watch the blood bead up and spill out, and unfortunately, the zokuzoku feelings are very real in this chilis as he gently swipes the pad of his thumb through it to smear it across Buzen's skin. This is fucking terrible.]
Your blood is looking as radiant today as ever, Buzen.
[the honesty... but he'll go to take a seat on a PEW because they're in a CHURCH and then pull matsui into his lap because he might as well sit for this.]
[THE HONESTY. There's just a little twinkle of gremlin amusement at the response, though, as if his blood comments are a little insider knowledge for Matsuis Only.
STOP REMINDING ME THEY'RE IN A CHURCH MAYBE THEY'LL BE FINE. They get more dangerous every tag though help. Of course he's just going to make himself comfortable, even if he's too busy gently rubbing Buzen's blood between his fingertips until it gets tacky like the freak weirdo he is to put his arms around him just yet.]
You only think?
[There's another little barely-there ripple of amusement. BUZEN IS FUNNY LISTEN.]
[I HAVE TO REMIND YOU, IT'S A FUCKING CATHEDRAL but buzen will just. allow this, i guess. he lets his head rest against matsui's shoulder even as he allows his arm and blood to be played with.......... okay.]
I only think.
[and he'll just sort of let them stay in that position for a second before he decides to be annoying and bury his face in matsui's neck
and bite him there (still not enough to draw blood)]
Anyway WISH THAT MATSUI WOULD FIND THIS ANNOYING!! WISH THAT HE WAS ON THE ANTISLUT SIDE OF THE CHART LIKE SISI PREDICTED!!!!! WISH THAT WAS TRUE!!!!!! Instead, he just huffs; a tiny, amused little sound. Reaching up with his not-bloody hand, he gently pets Buzen's hair.]
That sounds like more of a treat for you than me, Matsu....
[just mumbling against his neck before he places another kiss there, then leaning up to nuzzle against his cheek. buzen truly is so content just being close and affectionate. IT'S ONLY WEEK TWO WE REALLY GOT HERE AFTER TOUCH WEEK AND THEN THE CHAOS OF LAST WEEK HELLO,]
Do you want me to? Should I bite you about as much as I love you?
[that's nowhere in the rulebook don't make stuff up]
You're going to make me worry I don't pay attention to you enough, Matsu...
[but it's said with a little bit of teasing, and buzen will just go to lean in to press their lips together again in a kiss that lasts just a bit longer. soft and sweet.
and then he claims a second one on the heels of it, punctuating it with a bite. hard. enough to draw just a bit of blood.]
[But his heart is BUZEN GREEDY!!!!! He always wants more... More of Buzen's time, attention, touch, more of Buzen's eyes on him - it's terrible, really. The worst iteration of his hungry, hungry love is the part that would drag Buzen into death right along with him.
Fortunately(????) he's distracted from any depression spirals by the bite, which fills him with a sense of satisfaction, even if there's still an edge of something dissatisfied because he's always wanting more. He leans in to return the kiss post-bite, but now he's also itching to bite again...]
[why are all of buzen's love interests so yan and yan adjacent
that said, the dissatisfaction is confusing? especially when he wants to give matsui everything he wants... so he just accepts that kiss - even as briefly licks at matsui's lips, more to catch any blood that might fall than anything. when he speaks, he doesn't actually pull back all that fair - remaining close]
He shakes his head, the gesture short and controlled, even though the idea of Buzen tasting his blood unfortunately does things for him.]
--Mm. No. I'm satisfied with this.
[HE SAYS, LIKE IT ISN'T EMOTION SHARE WEEK AND OBVIOUS THAT HE DOES WANT MORE. It's the yearning... He always wants more! Of Buzen!! He wants more!! But he doesn't want to be greedy. It would be too easy for him to start slipping if he let himself have even a little bit extra, he thinks.]
[HIS EMOTIONS ARE SOOOO OBVIOUS and that's what makes buzen laugh against his mouth a little bit. the corner of his mouth is already upturned into a smile when he gives matsui another kiss - and nips at him again like a small punishment.]
Liar...
[said fondly.]
You can tell me what you want, Matsu. I'll give it to you.
[like a little promise, and he'll wrap his arms around matsui's waist to pull him closer so there's no space left between them at all]
[STOPPPP HE'S TRYING TO HIDE FROM HIS EMOTIONSSSSSS
Except for the fondness because he's always so very fond and Buzen just keeps finding ways to make him feel even more fond which is terrible for his poor heart.]
I know.
[But that's the problem!!! As he's said!!!
He doesn't seem to mind the nip, because of course he doesn't. He doesn't mind being so close to Buzen, either, even though he still craves a greater degree of closeness long after the possibility for it is gone. He sets his bloody hand on the pew, the other gently touching the side of his face before he kisses right above it, against the arch of Buzen's cheekbone.]
[what the hell is this craving, buzen is truly struggling here. the feeling from him is much like when he tries to pull back the blankets just to get a look at matsui's face - what is he hiding? he is curious, wanting, and needling in equal measure.]
I'm just as good to you as you deserve. I want to be even better.
[so much confidence... but he'll lean up to close the distance between their mouths again, pressing a firmer kiss to matsui's lips as if to try to impress some indent of buzen's affection against him.]
[Not his knee-jerk reaction to having the metaphoric covers pulled back being to try yanking them back up... Even now, it's hard for him to let anyone in. EVEN HIS BUZEN...]
You're already too good for me.
[A quiet murmur. There's no feeling of self-deprecation behind the statement, since he just views it as a plain and simple truth.
There's a little bit of hesitation, though. GOD, THE DEVIL (Buzen) IS TEMPTING HIM TO SIN IN CHURCH (it's his own inner horniness). He shakes his head again. He will not show and he will not tell.
But he will maybe allow himself another little bite, as a treat - catching Buzen's mouth quickly, biting at him with much more gentleness than he'd bitten his wrist with.]
[there is an urge to respond to that, but buzen’s mouth is quickly occupied in the next moment. he makes a soft noise again matsui’s lips, not expecting the kiss or the bite that follows. but he returns the affection nonetheless - he kisses matsui again once, twice, about a dozen times because he felt the hesitation and he wants to see if a frankly ridiculous amount of bribery will work in his favor.
between kisses, he speaks softly against matsui’s mouth - ]
I’m [kiss] already [bite] yours.
[the idea of being “too good” feels so far away when it’s never mattered to buzen in the first place - all he wants is to be everything he can to matsui]
[NOOO NOT BRIBERY IN HIS GOOD CHRISTIAN HOME. He accepts all of this bribery though, because what is he gonna do, not?? The terrible part is, the more of Buzen's attention and love and kisses he gets, the more he wants - but the more he wants, the harder it's going to be for him to disengage from his own greed and hunger.
Hearing those words makes his heart do a funny little flutter, and he presses himself in to bite Buzen's lip again without a kiss, first. He feels like he might say something foolish if he opens his mouth long enough for any words to get out, so he kisses his lips, up the side of his jaw, to his temple, and wraps his arms around him like he's bracing for a fall.
There's something about teetering on this dangerous line that has his blood feeling vibrant with excitement, and his heart is just as full of adoration as it always is, radiating in a way that words alone just can't convey.
[it is both amusing and sweet - to have affection be met with such an outpouring of affection. buzen matches matsui easily, he leans into every kiss, and makes another small noise when bitten. for some reason, he still doesn't expect it.
even still, the excitement and delight from matsui just prompt more from buzen in turn - his own heartbeat picking up and eagerness rising just to match. gay affection feedback loop. the kisses pull a smile from him, earnest and adoring, and he turns his head so that he can press more alternating kisses and nips along a path down matsui's jaw, down his throat - until he reaches the part where his collar impedes him.
so he brings one hand up just to hook the cloth out of the way and make room for himself? that's fine, isn't it? if that is still not enough room, he may take it upon himself to undo the top button. even if buzen does not know the path that this is leading, he doesn't want to do anything that might pull matsui down from his happy little high.]
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THEY'RE IN THE CATHEDRAL
SO THERE'S THAT]
What if it didn't? What if I just remembered you like it when I bite you?
[he's playing around though, obviously. also he's laughing both inside and outside. matsui is so strange and buzen similarly feels so much fondness for him. weird little guy.]
But yeah, it did.
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This is terrible god once again they're going to sail into a fondness spiral because Matsui finds Buzen's fondness very soft and sweet and adorable. HE LOVES BUZEN SO MUCH!!!!!]
Will you allow me a bite in return, then?
[He says this as if he will get any answer other than yes HE'S ALREADY REACHING FOR BUZEN'S HAND.]
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but buzen will just go ahead and let matsui reach for his hand. sure.]
Are you going to make me bleed?
[the way that he's not even like
all that offended at this possibility or worried, he just wants to know. also matsui deserves to do what makes him happy after this past week, even iF IT'S BITING BUZEN UNTIL HE BLEEDS]
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Can I?
[The vibes are absolutely and overwhelmingly that he wants to.]
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... yeah.
[matsui is so lucky that he has these insane gou privileges where buzen thinks he's cute even when he's being a fucking freak]
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Thank you.
[He's being so polite about this and so tendy when he gently grabs hold of Buzen's hand and starts moving his sleeve so he can expose his wrist. This is horrible. HE'S TRULY SO HAPPY TO BE ALLOWED TO CHOMP BUZEN'S BLOOD OUT!!!!
Which he will do, pulling his wrist to his mouth and biting down very gently at first, and then hard enough to draw blood in one swift motion. Not his stupid fangs.]
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but honestly it's so funny - he's so happy that eventually buzen's feelings just even out toward something fond. even when the blood is drawn, and he jumps just a little bit. he otherwise doesn't pull away and just lets matsui bite him enough to make him bleed.
a little sigh, both tired and endeared:]
You're welcome.
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Matsui pulls his mouth away so he can watch the blood bead up and spill out, and unfortunately, the zokuzoku feelings are very real in this chilis as he gently swipes the pad of his thumb through it to smear it across Buzen's skin. This is fucking terrible.]
Your blood is looking as radiant today as ever, Buzen.
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[the honesty... but he'll go to take a seat on a PEW because they're in a CHURCH and then pull matsui into his lap because he might as well sit for this.]
I'm glad this is a thing you like, I think.
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STOP REMINDING ME THEY'RE IN A CHURCH MAYBE THEY'LL BE FINE. They get more dangerous every tag though help. Of course he's just going to make himself comfortable, even if he's too busy gently rubbing Buzen's blood between his fingertips until it gets tacky like the freak weirdo he is to put his arms around him just yet.]
You only think?
[There's another little barely-there ripple of amusement. BUZEN IS FUNNY LISTEN.]
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I only think.
[and he'll just sort of let them stay in that position for a second before he decides to be annoying and bury his face in matsui's neck
and bite him there (still not enough to draw blood)]
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Anyway WISH THAT MATSUI WOULD FIND THIS ANNOYING!! WISH THAT HE WAS ON THE ANTISLUT SIDE OF THE CHART LIKE SISI PREDICTED!!!!! WISH THAT WAS TRUE!!!!!! Instead, he just huffs; a tiny, amused little sound. Reaching up with his not-bloody hand, he gently pets Buzen's hair.]
I don't mind if you draw blood.
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[just mumbling against his neck before he places another kiss there, then leaning up to nuzzle against his cheek. buzen truly is so content just being close and affectionate. IT'S ONLY WEEK TWO WE REALLY GOT HERE AFTER TOUCH WEEK AND THEN THE CHAOS OF LAST WEEK HELLO,]
Do you want me to? Should I bite you about as much as I love you?
[that's nowhere in the rulebook don't make stuff up]
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this game, ready to beat us over the head with the table leg that is weeks 0-1: :)
Anyway, Matsui is also very fond SO VERY FOND OF BUZEN... He leans against him, turning his head to catch a quick kiss.]
It is. [WHY IS HE SHAMELESS.] But if you would like to bite me that much, I would accept it all.
[With all of the massive amounts of adoration in his Buzen greedy heart.]
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[but it's said with a little bit of teasing, and buzen will just go to lean in to press their lips together again in a kiss that lasts just a bit longer. soft and sweet.
and then he claims a second one on the heels of it, punctuating it with a bite. hard. enough to draw just a bit of blood.]
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[But his heart is BUZEN GREEDY!!!!! He always wants more... More of Buzen's time, attention, touch, more of Buzen's eyes on him - it's terrible, really. The worst iteration of his hungry, hungry love is the part that would drag Buzen into death right along with him.
Fortunately(????) he's distracted from any depression spirals by the bite, which fills him with a sense of satisfaction, even if there's still an edge of something dissatisfied because he's always wanting more. He leans in to return the kiss post-bite, but now he's also itching to bite again...]
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that said, the dissatisfaction is confusing? especially when he wants to give matsui everything he wants... so he just accepts that kiss - even as briefly licks at matsui's lips, more to catch any blood that might fall than anything. when he speaks, he doesn't actually pull back all that fair - remaining close]
Is there something else you want, Matsu?
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He shakes his head, the gesture short and controlled, even though the idea of Buzen tasting his blood unfortunately does things for him.]
--Mm. No. I'm satisfied with this.
[HE SAYS, LIKE IT ISN'T EMOTION SHARE WEEK AND OBVIOUS THAT HE DOES WANT MORE. It's the yearning... He always wants more! Of Buzen!! He wants more!! But he doesn't want to be greedy. It would be too easy for him to start slipping if he let himself have even a little bit extra, he thinks.]
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Liar...
[said fondly.]
You can tell me what you want, Matsu. I'll give it to you.
[like a little promise, and he'll wrap his arms around matsui's waist to pull him closer so there's no space left between them at all]
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Except for the fondness because he's always so very fond and Buzen just keeps finding ways to make him feel even more fond which is terrible for his poor heart.]
I know.
[But that's the problem!!! As he's said!!!
He doesn't seem to mind the nip, because of course he doesn't. He doesn't mind being so close to Buzen, either, even though he still craves a greater degree of closeness long after the possibility for it is gone. He sets his bloody hand on the pew, the other gently touching the side of his face before he kisses right above it, against the arch of Buzen's cheekbone.]
You're too good to me.
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I'm just as good to you as you deserve. I want to be even better.
[so much confidence... but he'll lean up to close the distance between their mouths again, pressing a firmer kiss to matsui's lips as if to try to impress some indent of buzen's affection against him.]
If you can't tell me, can you show me?
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You're already too good for me.
[A quiet murmur. There's no feeling of self-deprecation behind the statement, since he just views it as a plain and simple truth.
There's a little bit of hesitation, though. GOD, THE DEVIL (Buzen) IS TEMPTING HIM TO SIN IN CHURCH (it's his own inner horniness). He shakes his head again. He will not show and he will not tell.
But he will maybe allow himself another little bite, as a treat - catching Buzen's mouth quickly, biting at him with much more gentleness than he'd bitten his wrist with.]
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between kisses, he speaks softly against matsui’s mouth - ]
I’m [kiss] already [bite] yours.
[the idea of being “too good” feels so far away when it’s never mattered to buzen in the first place - all he wants is to be everything he can to matsui]
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Hearing those words makes his heart do a funny little flutter, and he presses himself in to bite Buzen's lip again without a kiss, first. He feels like he might say something foolish if he opens his mouth long enough for any words to get out, so he kisses his lips, up the side of his jaw, to his temple, and wraps his arms around him like he's bracing for a fall.
There's something about teetering on this dangerous line that has his blood feeling vibrant with excitement, and his heart is just as full of adoration as it always is, radiating in a way that words alone just can't convey.
Mother peter watches impassively.]
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even still, the excitement and delight from matsui just prompt more from buzen in turn - his own heartbeat picking up and eagerness rising just to match. gay affection feedback loop. the kisses pull a smile from him, earnest and adoring, and he turns his head so that he can press more alternating kisses and nips along a path down matsui's jaw, down his throat - until he reaches the part where his collar impedes him.
so he brings one hand up just to hook the cloth out of the way and make room for himself? that's fine, isn't it? if that is still not enough room, he may take it upon himself to undo the top button. even if buzen does not know the path that this is leading, he doesn't want to do anything that might pull matsui down from his happy little high.]
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