hasteful | mutually assured destruction

[HE HAS TO SHARE CUSTODY OF HIS BUZEN WITH A FCKIN SPORTS CAR this sports car is going to be more of an enemy to him than itsuki ever will be.]

It's good to get the blood moving...

[EVEN IF IT'S LIKE THIS. EVEN THOUGH HIS HEART IS HAMMERING LIKE IT THOUGHT HIS BODY WAS ABOUT TO PERISH. Buzen might be able to feel it against his mouth when he presses his lips to his wrist. Very funny.

With his free hand, he'll gently card his fingers through Buzen's hair, tucking some behind his ear.]

Now that I know what to expect, I'll be fine.

[HELP NOT THE SPORTS CAR RIVALRY

hmmmm. buzen looks thoughtful at that, like he's not quite believing it.... but he'll still lean over the console to give matsui a kiss anyway.]

... You sure...? I'll just bring us to the beet soup place.

[IT'S THE BEGINNING OF THE END...

He will accept this kiss and give him a kiss back, but the thought of eating does not sit well with him right now, even if it's a beautifully red soup.]

...No, that's fine. We don't have to eat yet.

... If you're really sure...

[he'll give matsui's hand another squeeze, and lean over to give him one more kiss too... but then he'll go ahead and just shift. he doesn't let go of matsui's hand thought, just keeping one hand on the wheel.

and he will just start the car again! he drives.... a normal pace!! nice. he lets their joined hands rest in the space between them, interlacing their fingers.]

[Oh... This is so much better than before. NORMAL PACE DRIVING IS SO NICE BY COMPARISON.

Matsui is content to hold Buzen's hand, though as his heart rate begins to climb back down off the ceiling and he's watching the scenery go by at normal speeds where he can actually see the things they're passing, he has to ask...]

...Is this still fun for you?

Yeah!

[and his answer's sincere enough - he's relaxed and content, instead of losing his mind with delight, but that's still fine as far as he's concerned. especially since matsui's not panicking or sick... he'll guide their hands over to his mouth so he can kiss the back of matsui's without looking away from the road.]

It's still faster than I can run right now, so it's not bad. [his nerf...] I can go faster when you're not driving with me.

[(buzen voice) there's some sights you can only see by yourself on an open road]

[NOOOO IT'S ALREADY STARTEEEEED HE'S BEING USURPED BY THIS CAAAAAR. Matsui tops in the car to establish dominance over the car specifically, not Buzen.]

Ah... [At least he's content, which is good, even if it's not the high adrenaline levels of delight from before. Matsui would be the partner that does not go skydiving with their adrenaline junkie boyfriend no matter how many times they asked (until he eventually gets suckered into it and regrets it the whole way down).]

It's too bad. I enjoy seeing that level of excitement from you...

[NOT AT THE COST OF GOING 200+ MPH THOUGH.]

Oh! Well... Uh...

[

he doesn't know how to solve this because he doesn't want to go back at that speed when matsui doesn't like it. and if he's not hungry then it could hurt the rest of their date...]

I can go... a little faster....?

[Buzen has one single braincell rattling around inside his skull and Matsui loves him so dearly.]

...If you would like to.

[He trusts that Buzen won't lose his MIND and start blasting at mach fuck even if he goes a little faster, but he's also not sure how satisfying "a little faster" might be.]

Well... let me know if it gets too fast, and I'll slow down again.

[truly this is something he only says for matsui because he loves so much. no one else is allowed to dictate buzen's drive time except other gou's. but he'll squeeze matsui's hand once before letting go to put both hands on the steering wheel again!

he'll probably get closer to like. 80 or 90 mph. if allowed. this is shibuya.]

Mm... Alright. I will.

[THIS IS SHIBUYA. Matsui will let this happen though. 80 or 90 is still a much more tolerable speed than full tilt 200+ mph in a flashy red sports car.

He's even able to actually peer out the window this time! And see things!! Things that aren't just brief blurs whizzing past while he contemplates the afterlife! Sugoi...

Every now and then he'll peek over at Buzen too, just to look at his expression and see if he appears to be having fun driving nerfed.]

[he's enjoying himself!!! if they were cruising at a reasonable street speed like 40 mph before then this is already double that, and his energy has picked up considerably. it's not him SCREAMING with excitement, but he's way more engaged as they nyoom (slightly less fast than zoom) through the streets.

he can't look over - despite his need for speed he really does try to be safe (while matsui is in the car) - but he'll ask him anyway!]

How's this, Matsu? Still okay?

[Oh no his fondness is spilling over again... Nyooming is tolerable and he always loves anything that makes Buzen happy*, so this makes him feel happier in turn.
*almost, exceptions now for both 5am runs and also cars that go over 200 mph]

Mm, it is. Faster than a horse... Faster than a motorcycle, do you think?

[Buzen going 90 on a motorcycle. Nightmarish.]

[APPARENTLY THE FASTEST MOTORCYCLE IN THE WORLD GOES TO OVER 300 MPH SO,]

Probably not. Haha! You can go way faster when it's just you, an engine, and the open road!

[HE'S NEVER ACTUALLY DONE THIS, HE'S JUST SAYING IT. buzen isn't a flight risk but he's a motorcycle risk because he will want to go on insanely long trips by himself if he had one,]

Ah, maybe one day...! For now, this is good too. It's fun driving with you.

[BUZEN REALLY WOULD JUST FUCKIN DISAPPEAR FOR SO LONG AND EVERYONE WOULD JUST BE LIKE HE'S OUT WITH HIS ONE TRUE LOVE THE MOTORCYCLE AGAIN. GOING 300MPH.]

That's true... Less weighing you down.

[There's a little flicker of fondness in his expression that Buzen can't see because he's being a safe driver. It reflects in his tone too, at least, albeit softer.]

I'm glad that you're having fun. This is nice - I don't mind it.

[BUZEN ABANDONS HIS POLY BECAUSE HE REALIZES HOW MUCH HE LOVES GOING FAST ON A MOTORCYCLE,,]

Yeah? I'm glad, Matsu. If you're feeling better, we can wrap up and go get a bite now! Something red? Should we get some red blankets and stuff for the room too?

[this is what buzen can suggest short of just like. offering his blood or something to make matsui happy help.]

[HEEEEELP NOT HIS WHOLE POLY. THEY'RE ALL LEFT IN THE DUST.......

Also double help, Matsui would be most happy about his blood unfuckinfortuntely because he's still the more abnormal one even with Buzen's speed kink, but he is happy with this, too...]

Alright. Red blankets would be nice... I heard that another place that sells ice cream became available, too.

[Their ice cream that the living doesn't get!!!]

Hmm... So sweets after for dessert? That sounds good.

[buzen will just move to navigate them toward whatever cafe he saw. hopefully it's the one with beet soup.]

What else should we do... Wanna find a place to go dancing? Take a walk in the park around sunset?

[buzen's natural aptitude for two things: driving and casual romance]

[If it's not the one with beet soup that is fine, too. He will simply eat tomato soup and live with the inferior but still nice redness.

HE REALLY IS SO CASUALLY ROMANTIC THOUGH, HELP. Buzen is so charming.]

Why not both? We can walk in the sunset and dance on the roof under the moon.

[matsui won the coin flip it's a lucky guess and the cafe is the one with beet soup. wow. what a perfect date night.

buzen is once again parallel parking perfectly though, pleased as can be even as they get settled. he does that thing where he rests his hand on matsui's passenger seat and looks back over his shoulder to park that people find attractive. and then once they're all settled he just automatically leans over to give matsui a kiss.]

Sounds like a plan to me. Maybe we're pretty good at this.

[time to see how much of it they get through before they bang]

[WHAT A PERFECT DATE NIGHT...

Unfortunately Matsui finds this attractive too but that's because he finds pretty much everything Buzen does attractive. He'll give a gentle lil smooch back. Fortunately no banging has happened in this car yet... Maybe they'll get through the whole date (they will not).]

Do you think so? The day's only barely started, though.

[There's still plenty of time for things to go HORRIBLY WRONG...]

[maybe they'll win every stupid coinflip

matsui gets another kissy because at this point buzen is trained to give him just so many, but he smiles back in response]

Think I can stand by it. I'm already having a good time since I'm with you. That's what matters most, right?

[THEY WILL NOT but it's nice to dream.

Stop tempting him with kisses before lunch though damn, what's he supposed to do, not kiss back?? No!! Of course he does.]

Mm. I'm glad, then - I am, too.

[Even with the going 200mph part... He still loves stupid speed demon Buzen... Lifting his hand to his mouth so he can gently kiss the back of it, too. FULL OF BUZEN AFFECTION!!]

[i. help. they're gonna be stuck here kissing for a second then, up until buzen bites matsui's bottom lip at the tail end of one because he also knows matsui likes bites................. help,]

Good. I want to keep you as happy as I can.

[thinking about how i had to backdate a nightingale thread because of lambda so technically matsui would be even more clam depressed today but it's fine HE'S STILL GOT IT IN HIS STUPID BUZEN-LOVING HEART TO SMOOCH IN A CAR ABOUT IT.

There's a little flicker of a smile at the bite.]

...Thank you. I want to do what I can for you, too.

[He raises his hand, resting his fingertips lightly against the side of Buzen's face.]

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