[HIS SHITLIST IS TRULY THE STUPIDEST THING TO EVER EXIST.
But yeah!! HE PICKED A GOOD BUZEN SPOT!! He's sitting in the corner furthest from the window and he will probably start to melt if the sun touches him for too long, but it's worth it.]
Let's.
[Meaning he'll take tiny sips of his shake and eat a few fries with way too much ketchup and probably make some mental note to throw a bottle of it at Rang the next time they run into each other.
[For so many reasons?? HIS STRESS HEADACHES. Not that he's spent too much time thinking about the intricacies of alternate realities and far-off planets, but damn.
He seems to consider his answer, though, and eats another fry.]
[buzen is NOT thinking about it, because it will give him a headache. he's enjoying this sippy little sweet drink. if he discovers something later that'll doom timelines maybe he'll just give the fuck up but not right now!
instead he grins]
I'll take that as a good sign. They seem helpful enough, right? Like they're trying their best.
[Buzen will end up getting to know them but i aki might finally be in a position where i don't get an audience post that's 2 pages because unlike Scaramouche who's a lonely idiot, Matsui truly only cares about socializing with the Gous and the swords that happen into their orbit. FuCKING HELP.]
...Just try not to let your generosity do you harm.
Mm-hmm. She really has a sharp tongue, but I don't think she's a bad person.
[buzen doesn't really think anyone's a bad person,, but he looks thoughtful about it as matsui says it]
Well... if you really want me to, then I'll be careful, Matsu. [as careful as buzen ever can be,] I don't want to be someone you have to worry over. I know that much.
[he would absolutely do it if left unattended tho,]
[He has nothing good to say about Lambda so he simply says nothing at all...
ALSO BUZEN IS ALWAYS SOMEONE HE WORRIES ABOUT?? In the weird way that he does, but even moreso in a situation like this. He can't not worry about Buzen, he'll die. AGAIN!]
As long as you do your best to, then that's fine. Try to think a few seconds longer than usual before you take action.
[MATSUI REALLY DISLIKES SO MANY PEOPLE and buzen is just here chilling on vibes... similarly, he doesn't even seem to recognize that matsui said anything mean.
he just smiles.]
I'll do my best. Haha, I can always count on you to look after me, huh Matsu? I'm lucky.
[HIS HAND, CAUGHT. Now he's just depressed because he's thinking about Buzen's tenuous existence FUCKING HELP. WHY IS HE NEVER NOT DEPRESSED.
He gives Buzen's hand a little squeeze, but he at least knows not to say "that shouldn't be the case". He's the one who wouldn't exist without Buzen. The love he has is the strongest thing that ties him to life, after all.]
Buzen... [YOU'RE A GOTDAMN FOOL he doesn't say. I WISH YOU WOULDN'T SAY THAT he also doesn't say.] ...Please allow me to support you in any way I can, then.
[ . . . ah, he said something off again. buzen tries to address the situation in one of the few ways he can: stupidly. so he'll use his free hand to pick up a fry, load it with a ton of ketchup, and hold it out to matsui to eat.
[Buzen would definitely stop his ass if his support came at any cost to Matsui and he KNOWS THIS which is why he's SAYING THIS. Life or death, baybee!! The selfish part of himself that he hates would be content to stay with Buzen whatever the outcome, but the part that wants what's best for others is going to die trying to make sure Buzen gets back.
He will gladly replenish his red though, thanks, leaning over to accept this ketchup-with-a-side-of-fry offering.]
I know that you would still be stubborn, even if I asked you not to be.
[He loves Buzen and he also loves Buzen's infuriating personality traits... Sometimes he wants to throw Buzen out of a window in sheer exasperation but it's only out of love okay.]
[ . . . he falls a little quiet at that, taking those seconds to think about his answer. it's probably true. if there's something that could be difficult for matsui, buzen's immediate response will always be to shield him from it.
but he also knows that must be lonely too. to not be trusted.
after another moment, he'll squeeze matsui's hand.]
[He knows that Buzen is like this, at least, and doesn't typically take it to heart too harshly when he's just Buzening it up.
But even "I'll try" is frankly better than he'd been anticipating, so he smiles, just a little. He can't gently touch Buzen's face with his free hand because it's his FRY HAND so instead he just leans in to briefly rest their foreheads together.]
Yes. [Granted, anything Buzen gives him is enough even when it isn't, so the bar is not hard to clear.] ...Thank you.
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But yeah!! HE PICKED A GOOD BUZEN SPOT!! He's sitting in the corner furthest from the window and he will probably start to melt if the sun touches him for too long, but it's worth it.]
Let's.
[Meaning he'll take tiny sips of his shake and eat a few fries with way too much ketchup and probably make some mental note to throw a bottle of it at Rang the next time they run into each other.
BUT after a little while:]
...What do you think of them?
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[this is such a Buzen answer i’m so sorry if Matsui was looking for anything more,,]
Young, I guess. But they said they chose these jobs so I’ll respect them for that. It doesn’t seem like they want to be revived the way we do.
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Maybe they've been dead for such a long time that they would have nothing to return to by now.
[Blue was dodgy as hell when he asked about it... 29 in body but 20000 in spirit maybe.]
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[ . . . ]
Uhh, I don’t know what that means for the timeline though.
[takes another sip of his sweet drink]
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...If it's only us, then it should be fine, yes?
[Maybe no one else here is from their version of reality and they won't have to worry about it......]
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Well, we can worry about it later. There are a lot of different worlds here… which is also confusing, but honestly kind of exciting.
What about you, Matsu? What did you think of them?
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[For so many reasons?? HIS STRESS HEADACHES. Not that he's spent too much time thinking about the intricacies of alternate realities and far-off planets, but damn.
He seems to consider his answer, though, and eats another fry.]
...I don't have a reason to dislike them.
[Yet.]
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instead he grins]
I'll take that as a good sign. They seem helpful enough, right? Like they're trying their best.
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That's a generous way of interpreting things, Buzen...
[Fucking help. WHAT IS HE SO JUDGMENTAL FOR.]
But they at least seemed amenable to helping in some ways, which is better than none.
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If we've only got seven weeks left, in the case that we aren't able to figure all this out or win, then I'd rather be generous than not.
[might as well given people the benefit of the doubt before they stab him brutally six times,]
We should be able to contact them soon, they said... so I guess we'll end up getting to know them too.
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...Just try not to let your generosity do you harm.
[It's a big fuckin ask he knows.]
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but he looks thoughtful about that.]
Hmm... Lam-san gave me a similar warning... Do you really think that might happen?
[the way buzen's never considered there might be a downside to offering his help to people]
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Lambda? [>:(
The way they both gave the same advice and he's still like "of fuckin course she'd say that" about it HELP WHY IS HE LIKE THIS.]
--It might. I just don't want for you to end up suffering because you offered help to the wrong person.
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[buzen doesn't really think anyone's a bad person,, but he looks thoughtful about it as matsui says it]
Well... if you really want me to, then I'll be careful, Matsu. [as careful as buzen ever can be,] I don't want to be someone you have to worry over. I know that much.
[he would absolutely do it if left unattended tho,]
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ALSO BUZEN IS ALWAYS SOMEONE HE WORRIES ABOUT?? In the weird way that he does, but even moreso in a situation like this. He can't not worry about Buzen, he'll die. AGAIN!]
As long as you do your best to, then that's fine. Try to think a few seconds longer than usual before you take action.
[Again, what is he so mean for.]
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he just smiles.]
I'll do my best. Haha, I can always count on you to look after me, huh Matsu? I'm lucky.
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He's the lucky one though, and he knows it, and WHY CAN'T BUZEN KNOW IT. God. He's tired, existentially. So Buzen was actually right after all.]
It's the very least that I can do for you here, so don't hesitate to lean on me.
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he looks confused for a moment before he does reach over to catch matsui's non-fry eating hand with his own.]
Of course I rely on you, Matsu. Don't doubt that. There's no me without you.
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He gives Buzen's hand a little squeeze, but he at least knows not to say "that shouldn't be the case". He's the one who wouldn't exist without Buzen. The love he has is the strongest thing that ties him to life, after all.]
Buzen... [YOU'RE A GOTDAMN FOOL he doesn't say. I WISH YOU WOULDN'T SAY THAT he also doesn't say.] ...Please allow me to support you in any way I can, then.
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please replenish your red.]
What makes you think I'd ever stop you?
[
so far anyway.]
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He will gladly replenish his red though, thanks, leaning over to accept this ketchup-with-a-side-of-fry offering.]
You wouldn't, in most cases.
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... so I guess you're asking for me to not be stubborn about the remaining cases.
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[He loves Buzen and he also loves Buzen's infuriating personality traits... Sometimes he wants to throw Buzen out of a window in sheer exasperation but it's only out of love okay.]
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but he also knows that must be lonely too. to not be trusted.
after another moment, he'll squeeze matsui's hand.]
I'll try, Matsu.
Is that enough?
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But even "I'll try" is frankly better than he'd been anticipating, so he smiles, just a little. He can't gently touch Buzen's face with his free hand because it's his FRY HAND so instead he just leans in to briefly rest their foreheads together.]
Yes. [Granted, anything Buzen gives him is enough even when it isn't, so the bar is not hard to clear.] ...Thank you.
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